Just looked at some porn that I have to be honest I quite liked. It was upskirt footage which I have never been that into, but for some reason I found this footage sexy as hell. Pretty damaging to the ego to say 'I'm a guy who watches upskirt videos'. Anyway had a pretty good day today as I managed to will myself out of the flat and played a game of social soccer, the weather is/was beautiful and there doesn't seem to be a better way of getting yourself out of your own head than to socialise with people. I just find it so damned hard to work up the willpower to go out these days, the older I get the more I seem to think of reasons why something won't be worth doing. One of the things that often holds me back is money, I got absolutely burned during the recession of 08, and have never really been the same since. When I was in my 20's I never really gave a shit about money, but these days I'm quite the spendthrift.