24 Yrs/ on-diet (no sugar snacks) - blood-test normal for Testosterone (with full-Aphantasia). Been addicted to compliation porn (and creamy videos) in past couple of years, been with porn since I was about 14 Yrs old, mostly every-night for about 1-2 hours (with occasional week gaps), with 3-4 hours session every few months in a day, I would watch these. Been MO and PMO free since 22nd June 2021. Active in learning from subreddits, such as /r/pornfree & /r/nofap for past week, and will continue. An avid Anime watcher, now I trying to avoid "Ecchi" until I have this under control, I did only really watch for the plot but it's too tempting once in. There are days where I would read Manga, (sometimes specifically Romance and Ecchi), nowadays I read Romance/ Fighting with no Ecchi elements and will continue to do this. I live close to a nice masseuse nearby, who offers "extras", which I have had about four of these, sometimes different women's (I have had 3 BJs within past 22 days). I lost my V-card about four weeks back, before I began this journey. However, it was a semi-hard erection, enough for penetration but didn't feel anything from it. I barely feel horney (mostly don't) when I'm having these "extras". Let's all beat this addiction and becomes our best-selves. Will try to update at least once a week, to start mostly everyday - encouragement, tips and questions welcomed
Day 19 - A couple of erections (short) before I went to bed Day 20 - Failed erection with masseuse (one hour session, came only once with BJ) - Flatline all day Day 21 - Flatline all day Day 22 - No horniness - Woke up with a 80% erection for a couple of minutes - After 9 AM - complete flatline - After 1 PM - noticed 40% erected (only doing work tasks), went down soon after - Flaccid all day afterwards - Balls do feel tight - nonexistent libido
Day 23 - Woke up with semi-erection - flatline afterwards - no horniness - no withdrawals from PMO - still on Manga (And Yet, You Are So Sweet) - Balls bit heavy feels
Day 24 - Still woke up with solid-erection - no erections outside - no horniness - tempted to masturbate, didn't do it - little withdrawals from porn in the day - not seeing any positives yet since start of no PMO
Day 25 - woke up with a solid-erection - no erections in the day - no withdrawals - no horiness Day 26 - morning wood continues - no further erections in the day - had an urge to MO, kept mind pre-occupied - didn’t do it - felt bit of horiness I don’t know if I am actually in “flatline”, as morning wood continues - still no positives seen yet Day 27 - morning wood continues - a horny thought came across my mind, I went semi-erect while on toilet - no withdrawals - will start read “Your Brain on Porn” book - and post some thoughts here within next months Thoughts Soo close to 1 month, I will research deeply into what to do once I hit 3 months. I do not want to stop MO, but I can stop porn forever - would I see little to no improvements if I continued to MO without porn after 3 months
Day 25 - woke up with a solid-erection - no erections in the day - no withdrawals - no horiness Day 26 - morning wood continues - no further erections in the day - had an urge to MO, kept mind pre-occupied - didn’t do it - felt bit of horiness I don’t know if I am actually in “flatline”, as morning wood continues - still no positives seen yet Day 27 - morning wood continues - a horny thought came across my mind, I went semi-erect while on toilet - no withdrawals - will start read “Your Brain on Porn” book - and post some thoughts here within next months Thoughts Soo close to 1 month, I will research deeply into what to do once I hit 3 months. I do not want to stop MO, but I can stop porn forever - would I see little to no improvements if I continued to MO without porn after 3 months
