Hello! I recently started a blog on Reuniting under the name Fallen. I'm 28 years old and I'm totally inexperienced in terms of relationships and sex. I always wondered what's wrong with me, and then I found YBOP and realized that I'm addicted to PMO. I haven't brought up my background so far, so I will briefly do that here. Like many, I discovered masturbation when I was young (but probably earlier than most, when I was 8 or 9). I didn't understand what it was at first, but it felt good. When I was 11 I got a porn mag via friends (apparently they had found a hidden stash somewhere), but I was actually disgusted by it. I didn't look at it again until I was around 14. By then, I had started masturbating to non-nude pictures, which I found to be more arousing than porn. This actually never changed, and even today non-nude/softcore has been my priority over more extreme stuff. As my Internet connection got faster and faster, my picture hoarding increased. I was always looking for the perfect picture, and when I found it, it was no longer perfect once the session had ended. My addiction reached its peak when I moved out from my parents. Consequently, so did my social anxiety. While I've always been shy, I wasn't afraid of people before. However, I went out less and less, and eventually I only went out when I had to get food in order to survive. At this time I was also addicted to online RPGs, which I found to be a great escape from the real world. Obviously I lost contact with my friends. I always wanted to change my life, but no matter what I couldn't overcome my anxiety. I began to study at university, and while I made some acquaintances, I was still withdrawn. At this time I was still PMO:ing daily. Fast-forward to 2012. After an exhausting binge in the beginning of February, I got sick of it. I didn't want to do it anymore. That's when I found YBOP and discovered that masturbating was more than just a bad habit. February 7th was the last time I PMO'd. And I intend to keep it that way. Today is day 18 of no PMO, and it's been easy so far. However, I'm aware that it could turn around any day, and I'm prepared for it. I won't let withdrawals drag me back down to the bottom of the pit that I'm trying to climb. I feel better about myself, and I think I'm making good progress. My goal is a better life. I want to be happy. I want to gain social experience, especially with women. I want to achieve something that I can be proud of, and I think stopping PMO is a good first step. Let's beat this addiction.