The Road Goes Ever On

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by Eternity, Oct 9, 2013.

  1. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Thanks guys. I think I've done well today, at least until an hour ago... I was about to take a shower, but I wanted a running shirt to put on after. As I went upstairs to get it the laptop was conveniently beside the bed from last night. Well, that was silly.

    On the bright side I got to see two foxes today. I was walking against the wind so one of them didn't notice me until I was a few feet away. Definitely my favourite wild animal around here, alongside the lynx (which is more or less impossible to spot.) I've also begun a project where I'm going to try to plant an oak sapling on the edge of the field. If it takes root it will be a lifelong journey, and it will hopefully stand there for many generations to come.

    I'm going to look into cycling to work. It will take at least 2 hours single trip, but I'm thinking that I can do it on a Friday. The problem is that I need to go straight through a large city so that's what I'm going to look at.
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  2. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Somehow it sounds logical to me to relapse after the bike ride. I think I have been in such situation of having a feeling of accomplishment. As if deserving a fix. Maybe I am just projecting (sorry, that's what I do all the time on this board :D). Anyway, I hope you can find out which emotions have triggered you here, that really benefits you on the long run, and keep going! The cycling really seems nice, also the holiday you are planning. I have been cycling/ camping in the UK once and really enjoyed (at least the days it was not raining .... :rolleyes:)
  3. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    So, let's call this day one, just for motivation's sake. I didn't have the best of days, but whether it's due to the relapse or a brutal hay fever, I don't know. The latter surely didn't help, at least. I'm going to stay mostly indoors tonight, just to be safe. The farmers are cutting their grass fields now, and with the recent heavy wind I'm positive that's the reason.

    @NewStart19 Thanks. That's sort of what I've done on Fridays. I also disabled my old laptop, but now the new one is a problem. I could go put it in the guest house, or a shed. I might do it this weekend (it's midsummer weekend, so it's three days long) if I deem it necessary.

    @Gil79 I think it came down to boredom again. I was going to watch a streamed concert, but I had trouble accessing it and gave up on it. That's when I started to entertain the idea of updating myself.
    I think I'm beginning to enjoy the longer rides more than ever. It's a great way to escape which isn't detrimental. During summer it would be great to do some gravel rides, but I'm not that interested in buying another bike just for that. I think a road bike is fine as long as the surface isn't terrible. Maybe I'll set up a second wheelset with more offroadish tyres.
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  4. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Day two. It's raining. It's been going on for a few hours and hopefully continues into the night. It's become very dry again, so it is welcome. I decided not to go for a run due to it, though. Which is okay, I'm still in a bit of a recovery period after the long ride. With that done, I'm going to start running again a little. I'm not replacing cycling, but sometimes a change is good. I want to work towards running 10k. It's not a lot, but it's roughly an hour's exercise for me, and running in the woods is difficult to top.

    I looked into what I'd need to convert the bike to gravel. I already got a good spare wheelset, so I'd need tyres (~35mm wide should fit), brake discs, and a cassette. With this I'd just have to swap wheels which takes about two minutes. It'd cost about 200€, at most, which isn't bad at all. Way better than a completely new bike.
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  5. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Day three. I think I have found my next cycling challenge. More on it at a later point when I know for sure. That means I won't do any running, though. I need to spend a lot of time at the local hill doing reps, and try to improve my power so that I can take on some (relatively) big climbs. And no, the challenge is not Everesting.

    Tomorrow it's weekend again. I don't know what will happen, but I'll try to treat it as just another evening. I should go for a ride, too. Enough with the recovery now.

    Strava's got a free trial going now, and since it's going to have mostly paid content in the future, I thought I'd give it a go. I've never been a Strava addict, but I think it can become a good tool for the future.
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  6. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    I'm afraid that I'm back to day one. There was a roadside ad that I was unable to get out of my head. Excellent, now even the work commute is a potential trigger.

    I was able to do some training yesterday, at least. I tried to go full gas up a climb, but I didn't last all the way. It is several kilometers long, though, and I didn't expect that I could. I need to more of these shorter sessions where I go hard.

    Today I'm going to begin cutting the field. I don't know how much I'll do, it depends on how bad the blisters get, I suppose. Tonight I'll have homemade pizza, and hopefully I can work up a good appetite. Later tonight I'm going for an evening walk in the woods. That should eliminate the risk of another relapse.

    I need to start thinking about goals and plans for my life. I think that's partially why I struggle, there's no true reason to reboot.
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  7. Shady

    Shady Well-Known Member

    Keep going...
    And yes it's important to set goals.
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  8. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Day one once more. It's tough to get going again, isn't it? Even though I do everything I've planned, it's not enough. It might be time to make the laptop less accessible.

    I'm suffering badly today from allergies. As expected. But I can't just stay indoors all day. Fortunately cycling seems to help me escape the runny nose so tomorrow I'll go for a couple of hour's ride.

    Despite the allergy I will try to finish working on the field this weekend. It's worth it if it may in the future become a place for many flowers.

    @NewStart19 As mentioned I also suffer from allergy. It was worth it, though. The night sky is simply magical. I live in Sweden, in the countryside. My house is at the border of a small forest in the middle of vast fields. Hope that's enough, I don't want to get too specific. I do have vague goals but I've never written them down. It might help my resolve if I do.

    The picture is from Tolkien indeed. It's by Ted Nasmith and describes The Curse of Morgoth, where Morgoth curses Húrin.

    Sit now there; and look out upon the lands where evil and despair shall come upon those whom thou lovest.
    Thou hast dared to mock me, and to question the power of Melkor, Master of the fates of Arda.
    Therefore, with my eyes thou shalt see, and with my ears thou shalt hear;
    And never shalt thou move from this place until all is fulfilled unto its bitter end.
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  9. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    Same here. Yesterday I spend a day working in the lab with filtered air and overpresure, which was really a delight. But I also find that nosespray for hay fever works quite well.

    I am sure that somehow you must have set a vision amd goals to yourself, cause you really have some nice things going on. Your house and land, the cycling, that must come from a passion you have for those things. Last night I read in YBOP, the book, how important (besides more long-term goals) connectiveness to others is in rebooting. Even if it is very small, like calling family member or aquaintance every few days.
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  10. Shady

    Shady Well-Known Member

    @Eternity it's difficult the first 5-7 weeks. Just stay very alert and strong during that period then it'll get easier.
  11. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Day two, finally beyond that awful day one. I've suffered severely due to hay fever today, but that's the price to pay for grass cutting. That said, using a scythe is a very good core training method. Unfortunately, the old scythes that I used both broke. I've ordered a new one to use for now, but in the future I'd like to buy a full-length, high quality one. I've had this idea to, if I can get good at it, offer my service to those who want their fields cut eco-friendly.

    Yesterday I went cycling and except for some strong wind it was nice. Cycling gets me away from the hay fever problems which is nice. I've come up with a fun goal, to see what speed I can reach downhill. Within reason, of course. I don't want to crash. So far the best is 55km/h but I think I can do much better.

    @Gil79 I think I need to look up some aid. It's really taking the joy out of summer. The worst part is the itchy eyes, but I think ski goggles may help there. And yeah, maybe I'm not aware of the goals? Regardless I should list them.

    @Shady I'm thinking about setting a short-time goal to work on during these first months. If there is something to focus on during those boredom episodes, it may help.

    @NewStart19 It's really an enjoyable way to suffer. I think for this upcoming weekend I'm going to place the laptop where I can't reach it easily. I don't trust myself to stay clean right now. Sweden is okay, but not everything is as good as most foreigners seem to think. But I think that goes for any place.
    In The Silmarillion it is in the chapter The Fifth Battle. Húrin was chained to Thangorodrim and forced to watch over the ruin of his family. I haven't actually read The Children yet. For many years I've been stuck with Wheel of Time, but I plan on getting it sometime.
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  12. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Day three. Feeling pretty good today, despite having another hay fever day. I went for a post-work run, it was neither fast nor long, but it was nice.

    I've decided that I'm going to attempt a sugar free* July. This could backfire horribly but I want to see what effects it has on me. The first days are going to suck, but I have done it before.
    * Gels and ketchup is ok, but I don't really use either much.

    @NewStart19 Yeah, a lot happens and I wish it had been three times as long. There is of course a lot of lore to add from the other books such as Unfinished Tales to make it "thicker."

    Thanks. Summer was always my favourite season for PMO, so this is really on the highest difficulty right now.
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  13. Shady

    Shady Well-Known Member

    Shorter goals are a good idea.

    Sugar free? You trying to lose weight?
  14. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    That is so cool. I used one once for a field with nettles. It worked quite well. But with grasses I found it more difficult. Maybe my technique was not good or it was blunt.
  15. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Dawn of day six. I got up early due to a clogged nostril, and found it better to stay up. I don't feel very good; an acne breakout is making me feel ugly and is destroying my confidence. There's no telling what will happen tonight, but maybe waking up early will help me sleep.
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  16. Shady

    Shady Well-Known Member

  17. TruettW

    TruettW Active Member

    If you eliminate dairy and sugar as much as possible from your diet, the allergy should be noticeably relieved

    Wishing you well on your journey!
  18. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    So passes another summer without progress. I disappeared again, partially due to the strong do and don't:s here. I always aim for perfection, but in the end it overwhelms me. As always it's been concentrated to the weekends, but it is frustrating to fall just when I begin to get somewhere.

    I want to give it another try. I don't even know what's happened during the last three months. It's all blended together to a bland soup of repetition. Seeing how it is a new month, I can use that as a symbol of a beginning.

    Not all has been bad. I've hit my daily steps every day for over two months now, but I'm beginning to question it. I've done less cycling and a bit more running. With winter coming, I want to buy a trainer to make exercise easier.

    I also bought an air fryer recently, which hopefully will make cooking easier and more fun. I'm going to experiment with fried rice soon. Depending on the results, it could be nice lunchbox food.

    It's good to finally find the courage to return.
  19. Shady

    Shady Well-Known Member

    Welcome back.

    My advice: take it easy on yourself.

    I love the airfryer.
  20. -Luke-

    -Luke- Well-Known Member

    Dude, why are you stealing my thoughts? But seriously, good to have you back.

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