Ah, this is embarrassing, but I ended up edging for a long time last night. There is no excuse. As a result I feel terrible this morning. I'm losing sight of what's important. Well, there's only forward to go after this. This shows that I even procrastinate the reboot itself. "There's always tomorrow." No, there isn't. It's frustrating not to get anywhere. I've always told myself that I want to be alone, but is this true? Can I even do this completely on my own?