The Real Problem...

Discussion in 'Internet Addiction' started by geeknoid, May 22, 2014.

  1. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    I'm on 149 day since I last looked at porn. I didn't have severe withdrawal symptoms or any great improvements. That's probably because I started PMOing at an early age. So it's gonna take bit longer to rewire my brain. I realized that problems that I'm facing like procrastination, inertia and social isolation except ED have caused because of internet addiction. While ED is caused by PMO. So I decided to decrease my bullshit internet use. And from day 1 I started getting withdrawal symptoms like increased irritability, restlessness, depression, brain fog-just to name a few. From the start and till now I haven't relapsed in no PMO. But I guess it was day 3-4 of decreased internet use and I had relapsed. So I'm starting moderated internet use journal from today.

    Here are my rules:
    1) Use internet only for studies and important work
    2) No more than total 60 minutes/day on facebook/YBR/e-mail
    3) If spent more that 60 minutes/day on above mentioned and other time wasting websites I have relapsed and I will say it here


    Let's see what happens.... :-\
     
  2. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 1
    Complete with little bit of craving.
     
  3. Dilirium

    Dilirium Who lives without discipline dies without honor!

    You're absolutely right. Internet is a killer! It's a problem of at least the same magnitude as PMO. I too started to waste more time on the internet unconsciously when trying to overcome PMO, it made me really depressed and I only saw my life slide backwards, which made me think I should give up on the NoFap challenge. All the while it was my unintentional increased internet usage that actually lead to the negative thinking and worrying, not the NoFap challenge!
     
  4. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Hey I've read your post.
    If you can do read the book: 'The Shallows - What the Internet Is Doing to Our Brains by Nicholas Carr'
     
  5. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 2
    I was able to keep internet use in complete control. I was away from zombie internet use. I did my workout. And went outside as well.
     
  6. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 3
    I was in complete control. But it was boring day. I had nothing to do. Ye..there was a book I was reading. It started a headache. :mad: But a clean day.
     
  7. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 4
    I was in control. There were situations where I could have gone out of control but didn't. I have noticed I have started criticizing a lot. And for no big reason. I have became a critic. It might be troublesome in social situations.
     
  8. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 5
    I went to friend's place. Had some talk with him. He had his PC turned on. He was telling me about problem his smartphone have. I was getting bored at home that's why I went to friend's place. But after some chat he started checking whatsapp. As he checking it I started getting bored at his place as well. I was tempted to use internet. I went in front of his PC and went to google. As I was about to relapse/surf one thing popped in mind- what am I supposed to do now? What am I going to search for? You guys might find it weird but for first time I found internet surfing trivial. and I think it's a good thing. So I backed off and waited my friends to talk. As I was waiting one of my another friend came to my friend's home (who happens to be his friends as well). And I was saved from relapsing. And then we started to chat. In a while haven't had such time talking with them. I wasn't talking much there but it's not necessary that you should be heart and soul of all occasions. You have to be just part of it. So in order to stay away from relapsing/for staying away from internet you have to be around people rather than alone.
     
  9. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 6
    And I have relapsed. I had to do some work on PC. I did that and got drifted away spending about 2 hours online.
     
  10. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 1
    Completed Day 1. I have completed reading a book. And there was nothing to do. I was wandering restlessly in home. Man....withdrawal sucks!!
     
  11. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 2
    I completed Day 2. I have picked up another book to read. But it's really boring. I don't know what to do. I was wandering in home restlessly just like yesterday. I will be joining college in coming June-July. I am looking forward to it.
     
  12. geeknoid

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    Day 3
    Completed Day 3 with same symptoms. I am reading a social psychology book. So, that I can learn about social event/world and how my mind is likely to interpret them. I am still having restlessness while not using internet. So, instead of using internet I am going out more. By going out more I mean more than I previously used to.
     
  13. geeknoid

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    Day 4
    I have become involved with.....what should I call them....not so honest/not so righteous people with their work. All they do is....mind my English I am not native speaker....All they do is make fun of people/criticize people. Jim Rohn has said, “You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with.” As a result I am also becoming like them. I am making fun of/criticizing people, even of my family. People who are not so experienced with socializing should be careful about with what kind of people they hang out/socialize with.
     
  14. kopp

    kopp Member

    Courage bro. :) Continue to fight!
     
  15. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Thanks Pal!
     
  16. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 6
    Yesterday I went to friend's/relative's home for small social event. It was in afternoon so I was going to have my lunch there. Everything was fine at beginning but when I was going home back after having lunch and after having some talk with friends. Outside my friend's home there were some people who were also invited to the event. There was a man who I don't like much. He is a babbling bastard. He talks in way like he is respecting you but he really doesn't. He will sneak about you to your friends and family. I don't have acid tongue...wish I had. So that people would think before talking to me. Well while I am trying to socialize I might develop it. It was a clean day. I am starting to notice some social norms of where I live currently. There's no privacy. Well individualism is proliferating in India...in bigger cities. But not a bit where I live. I was born and brought up in city. So I was accustomed to its norms. But unfortunately I had to move to where I currently live because of problems arisen by my addiction. The social norms here are pathetic.
     
  17. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 7
    7 days challenge complete. Now I am going to increase duration of challenge.
     
  18. kopp

    kopp Member

    How has it impacted your life atm? Are you more social, less anxious?
     
  19. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Significantly! I am lot social than before, less anxious. Now I feel seating in front of PC for no reason is waste of time. Which I never felt before. I was just giving in to that urge. Now I know what I really want. I think the longer we stay away from unimportant internet use the better we will feel in long term! Good Luck! :D
     
  20. geeknoid

    geeknoid Guest

    Day 9
    I am feeling really guilty/disgusting to say that I have relapsed. I am feeling like crying. :'(
     

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