All my life I avoided any type of intimacy with a girl due to a fear that my dick was too small. So I got myself off by watching porn, going into chatrooms doing cam to cam stuff, n even a couple of times going infront of a webcam for whoever to watch me. For some reason it really turned me on - even though I was thinking 'joe wtf are doing'?! The first time I got naked infront of a woman I was just about to turn 24 (about 2yrs ago). She was an old big heffer, had a face like a slapped arse n I just thought fuck it. Might aswell. No ones gonna find out! Well surprise surprise I didn't get hard with her. On the other hand She had a great time, with me using a *dildo* on her... (go onnn limp dick!) not sure this counts as me losing my Virginity! - The strange thing was, I was proud of myself for actually getting naked infront of someone, n showing her whats I gots But seriously that was such a big deal to me. Fast forward to where i'm at now. I've been in a relationship for about 14months. Initially it was so hard to have sex due to suffering from ED. My gf is 26yrs old and beautiful, and If i told you I couldnt get it up for her or stay hard you'd think I was a gay in denial! Luckily my gf has been extremely understanding. We had spoke about it loads, n eventually she confided in me that she thought my dick was 'lazy' n 'unreactive'. She's slept with over 28+men (which kills me) so she knows her stuff! And encouraged me to go see the doctor. I arranged to see a doctor afew months ago to see what they can do to help me. Had a blood test for testosterone deficiency. I was crushed when I found out that I had normal levels of testerone in my blood. I was left thinking there was something seriously wrong with me. Then I discovered yourbrainonporn.com The information from that site is incredible. Everything suddenly makes sense as to why I've been the way I have. I have been a masturbating addict since around 14yrs old.Eventually turning to harder more shocking porn to get me a bigger kick. N then actually going on a webcam n shit as thats the only way I'd get hard. --> what the fuck are you doing u nob! haha! So I've started the no porn or masterbation or orgasm 2weeks ago. It was all going well until I relasped yesterday and today. The first time was having sex with my gf - you might be thinking hang on a minute, you were having sex? Then you have no problem? - Well my dicks never been 100% erect with her n often only gets hard when I cum! --n to be precise it was after sex, she'd gone out n I had to have a wank. And I have had another wank today... So back to day 0. So the positives from my first 2 weeks. 1) I got to 2 weeks! 2) Just the relief of discovering this forum n the other website, reading the success stories. 3) day 9 I had a spontaneous erection - not had one of these bad boys since I was like 16!! 4) Waking up/going to sleep and not wanking! - recognising the urges to have a wank are actually through my brain wanting its hit of dopamine! (best get the webcam out eh..) haha I'm proud of what I've done upto now. If anyones interested I'll keep afew updates as to how I'm getting on. I would love to hear any feedback if any of you have questions or can relate to me, can help me out.