It's been more than 8 months since my last PMO session. Crazy to think about really. I have both great as well as not so great news, but overall it's good news First of, the great news! : **Trígger warning**! The girl I've been seeing came by to spend the night on Friday. She surprised me with a gift where she changed clothes and came back wearing a naughty Santa girl costume, complete with garder belts and no underwear. Needles to say that I was very surprised as this was actually something I never imagined experiencing, yet being a really naughty fantasy. I remember when I was a teenager, before being caught up in too much porn, I sometimes wondered how I would be able to have sex when my dick was as hard as it was because it was impossible to move it downwards into a sex position as I had seen in porn magazines. My erection was thay hard! For the last many, many years I have never given those thoughts another thought as I had no problem in moving my penis down into position even though I had a hard n. On Friday, for the first time in 10 years I think, my dick was just as hard as when I was a teenager. I could not move it down into position without it hurting a little bit, so I had to change my angle of vaginal entry in order to have sex. I cannot remember that I have felt so much joy and complete amazement at once! **Trigger end** That was the good news. The not so good news are that I still suffer from being too aware of my PIED and how turned on I am at the moment I should feel turned on. I knew that I was turned on but still it was lacking a little bit. What's even worse is that I could not feel my penis even though I had the hardest of hardons. I couldn't feel if it was up or down as it was not a throbbing erection even if it could cut through steel. That means that I still have an enormous diconnect between my brain and my penis which sucks! Furthermore, my libido is still not very high and my refractory period is just horrible. I even think that it is worse this time around than the last time. I still don't have morning wood either. I am perfectly aware that reading about my rock hard dick and then hear me whine about low libido and long refractory periods will make some people annoyed as they cannot get it up at all. My sympathy and empathy goes out to you but I am rebooting for low libido which caused me inability to maintain an erection and until that libido returns and I have regular morning wood I will not consider myself rebooted. An example of the libido I used to have would be that I was meeting up with my ex-gf yesterday to do some Cristmas shopping and we had texted a bit about having sex just for the fun of it over the last week or so. The reason why we didn't end up having sex was because I was stalling it and thinking about the consequences of having sexual relations with the girl I spent 5 years of my life with and who broke my heart earlier this year. If I had my old libido I would not give a flying fuck about the consequences or the new girl that I'm seeing. I would just jump at the chance of having sex with my ex-gf. Many will probably say that it was the responsible and sensible thing to do and that I am a grown-up and should act as one as well. But I say fuck that because I want a libido where it's my dick that does the thinking and not my brain. Wishing that kind of stuff instead of thinking about consequences, like I am doing, is the result of being a complete asexual for years before rebooting. Fucked up - I know! regardless, I am extremely happy with my erection quality on Friday and I really hope that it will be just as good the next time around. Merry X-Mas to all!