The new me

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Gondapa, Mar 25, 2013.

  1. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    I've been PMO free for 18 days or so. I MOd half asleep in bed on day 16 and the whole thing was over in less than a minute. And today after 2 days or so, I MOd in bed during my sleep again. Whilst I know that rebooting is staying away from PMO and MO I have tried this approach many times before without success, I should say that the MO has only happened when I am half conscious in bed and if I could have stopped I would probably have.

    Does this approach of MO slow down my reboot and does anyone out there experience the same thing?
     
  2. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    I would really line a girlfriend man - girls can be a pain agreed but when you've never been with one you do crave for one. It's a bit like saying money is evil - you'd rather be poor than rich. I'm sure would rather be rich than poor even though having money comes with downsides
     
  3. charlescharles

    charlescharles New Member

    First i think you first have to answer why you MOd? You were horny, bored, wants to feel good? And after you should see if MO makes you have desires to watch P.
    In my thoughts MO can't be a bad thing because our fathers and grandfathers also masturbates and it didn't induced any problems in their health, social life or personality. Our problems is that we strongly associate masturbation with porn and that's we are trying to rewire.

    If you are concerned about this try to go more without MO and analysis how it goes for you. If you notice improvements in your mood and other keep going :)
     
  4. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    I am hooked up on MO these days. :-\
     
  5. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    I am binging on MO a few times a night at bed time in the middle of the night and before waking up. Just thinking about old porn scenes which I liked and fantasising over them. Is this affecting my reboot and is it as bad as PMO?
     
  6. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    I am binging on MO a few times a night at bed time in the middle of the night and before waking up. Just thinking about old porn scenes which I liked and fantasising over them and fapping. Is this affecting my reboot and is it as bad as PMO?
    Any replies would be appreciated.
     
  7. Michael84

    Michael84 Member

    Yes, MO is bad too. Maybe not as much as PMO but still..
     
  8. Paddy

    Paddy New Member

    PMO is the worst. But I don't know if P is worse than MO. I find that excessive MO'ing set me back a lot and it also makes me feel awful.

    I think you need to try and stop MO'ing so much. Easier said than done I know.
     
  9. shitcompton

    shitcompton New Member

    For me, MO feels pretty natural these days with no chaser or any side effects whatsoever. It probably makes my mood better and more stable.

    Reboot-wise I don't know the effect. It may be slowing my progress, but then again I'm not sure where I'm at in the reboot (no gf or opportunities for sex).

    But you said you're MO'ing to porn scenes in your head...that's definitely bad. Sooner or later you'll be back on P. You're binging MO because it's giving you highs similar to PMO. Normal MO shouldn't be more than once a day IMO (psychologically speaking, because it's 'boring'). Try M without P thoughts...if you can't then really try to not M for a while.
     
  10. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    MO is keeping me away from porn,peeking,edging etc. I haven't looked for any porn for more than a week and MO has kept the horniness away.
    So it's the lesser of the two evils for me in my reboot. My previous failures were trying to win 2 battles which always ended in my abject failure and back into a vicious circle.
    So for now I don't think I can put too much pressure on my brain in terms of porn.

    I think I have tried MO without porn but I struggled to get an erection and felt like I was rubbing a dead fish... :-[
     
  11. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    Guys please help!

    That girl who I had a crush on came back to the workplace after a long absence. She came to talk to me. I chatted back with her as I didn't want to appear rude. But she will be around for much much longer than I thought - i.e. I will be seeing her every day and I am already terrified because of my old feelings for her - whether it is lust or something else - I am like a lost sailor at sea in a storm and really don't know what to do.

    I am really hoping I don't screw up my progress of the last 30 days as old feelings are flaring up. :'( :'( :'(

    HELP!
     
  12. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

    Is this girl the last and only girl left in the world?

    Seriously man the fuck up, you're however old and you're getting hung up on some bitch who doesn't give you a second thought once you're out of sight?

    This is some high school preppy bullshit problem that you should be like swatting away as if it was an insignificant fly causing you some small nuisance.

    Not having sleepless nights over and basing your recovering around.
     
  13. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    It is easier said than done. I also have lust for her - I frequently jerk over her and seeing her walking in those sexy dresses and skirts knowing that other guys are fucking her while I can't makes me feel worthless and depressed.
     
  14. Metal

    Metal Get busy living or get busy dying

    Sounds like you're a glutton for punishment. I mean this is the same girl that has rejected your advances, told you she has fucked the guys you work with and still you want to get emotional and spend energy thinking and lusting after her.

    Well man if you cant take a step back to realise how much of a waste of energy and your own dignity giving time for this girl then there is nothing anyone can say to help you really. You should have enough pride and self respect to allow yourself to move on.
     
  15. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    Yes same girl but she does not fuck guys at the work place. Only non colleagues but she sees me as a friend. But I will avoid her to avoid getting hurt in the process.
    Thanks
     
  16. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    I looked for porn and edged today. But stopped before it got too crazy :'(
     
  17. Paddy

    Paddy New Member

    You wrote that you're MO'ing to porn fantasy. You might want to read this: http://yourbrainonporn.com/what-about-fantasizing-during-reboot
     
  18. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    Thanks. This is very useful to understand what's going on. So basically to get over the addiction requires both PMO and MO.
     
  19. Gondapa

    Gondapa Member

    I've been feeling pretty shit throughout the weekend. A sense of hopelessness and weakness around me. I am binging on MO whether to porn fantasy or to girls I think of.

    Also keep seeing that girl at work (can't avoid seeing her) makes me sad.

    Sometimes I don't know what is my purpose in life. It's like I've lost the will to live (but not die). Does this make any sense? :-\
     
  20. Sammy3000

    Sammy3000 We are no longer the hollow men

    You don't find your purpose in life.

    You forget it yourself with will and sheer power.

    I was super happy to see your progress so far but if you've been binging to MO that's also pretty unhealthy behaviour. Another reason why it's difficult for you to get over the girl or stop feeling sad about it. This addiction fries our neofrontal cortex which regulates our emotional states. Hence all the mood swings we get when we get off of our drug of choice.

    The losing the will to live is the porn addiction man.

    Once we step farther and farther away from this shadow the path will seem much clearer.

    Hell man I'm not where I was when I started this journey. I can tell you that much.
     

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