Yesterday I relapsed after over two months clean... I have been a member on another forum for several years. Over time I became very invested in the journeys of other members and it became difficult for me to not become obsessive in checking for various updates. After my relapse I decided that I needed a fresh start. There are some aspects of my addiction that I felt uncomfortable writing about when I joined the other forum. I have decided to be brutally honest in this log and to heck with any judgement I may receive. The below is a description of the type of material that I find the most difficulty in avoiding. I don't list the below to be salacious but as an attempt to be completely transparent and honest with myself. Spoiler: Descriptions of P types/acts Amateur Cuckold/hotwife/swinger content (especially interracial) - this became a big issue after getting married "Nice" bums/anal sex - always have been interested in this since first viewing "Swallowing" - always been interested in this since first viewing Amateur content of uninhabited encounters - sex at a party, sex at a club, sex at work, cheating, etc. At the previous site I feel I was focused too much on a lofty goal of number of days clean. This really has to be a day by day commitment. I'll share more of my background and recovery efforts tomorrow.