Hi everyone, this is my first post, and first of all i want to thank you all to give me a chance of changing my life. As you can read on the subject i am quite worried, i feel in a corner. I quit watching porn some days ago, i really don't know exactly how many, maybe more than 10. I'm just trying to focus on my real life, on what i can do, and i feel positive vibrations, i know i can do it. Of course, sometimes is really hard, because i think about all the pain that my addiction has caused. My HIDDEN addiction. Yes, because i've never speak about this to my wife. Our story began as a fairy tale, we have a beautiful six year old boy. I was addicted to porn for a very long time, since my first year at university, and now i'm 35. Porn has never really hurt me before, i felt that i was doing something wrong, but it didn't cause severe damages in my life. But last year has been tragic. Me and my wife strongly desire another baby, but unfortunately we lost two... and my addiction got worse. Finally i realized that i must give up, i'm really convinced now, and as i wrote before i feel ready to overcome it. The problem now is that i'm in a classic "flatline" (i don't know if this is the right term), my libido is very low. And obviously i'm not able to make love with my wife in these conditions, but she wants this baby and she thinks time is running out. I told her i'm stressed and scared of what happened in the past, i'm scared of another loss. And it is pretty true, but i've omitted to tell her about MY problem. I can't tell it to her, it would be too painful for her, she has already suffered enough. But i want to change my life, i love her, i want another baby. I just wish i have more time to "heal", but the environment is now really tense. And i don't know how i can do .. Any suggestion will be appreciated, thank you guys and good luck to everyone.