Re: ElJefe's journal Wooop!! I'm home!! Back at university for my final term. God I am so happy to be back to my life again, rather than being stuck with my parents. This term is going to be the best because after this essay is in (deadline is Tuesday but I have an extension till next Monday), all I have work-wise is a recital to prepare for (Jazz voice, and I just gotta have loads of rehearsals with my band!) - hardly work! And after 27th May when my recital is I will have a month here just to enjoy myself with no worries or cares in the world! SO FUCKING HAPPY TO BE BACK HOME! I don't know what it is, but the more I think about it, the more I feel like I don't really love my parents. Or maybe I mean I love them, but I don't really like them. Maybe that's not the same thing. I try to love all people equally but that is different from actually liking them. Is it selfish, then, that I rely on them quite a lot for financial support? It kinda makes me feel guilty, but I guess as parents that's kind of their duty, right? It's not like I hate them or anything, we just have very different ways of viewing life and do not see eye to eye on a number of issues. I do not feel a close bond with my parents like so many do, even though I am an only child. I'd be interested to hear your thoughts on these issues 'cos I'm curious how other people are with their 'rents. @Jedi Don't worry, I'm sure I often sound preachy in my posts without meaning to. I knew what you meant anyway ! My technique is a mixture of Early Warning System and constant self-forgiveness. I let myself off the hook for things I have done that I'm not pleased about, and get into a habit of doing that. Because my addiction stems from perfectionism, it's vital that I don't beat myself up about things and that I'm kind to myself. So that is what I do. I make it a point of priority to just love myself and not worry about things.