The Fourth Diary of Antinoüs - day 0

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Antinoüs, Jun 3, 2012.

  1. Antinoüs

    Antinoüs New Member

    So far, so good. I was trying to deal with my horniness with real life sex instead of the virtual version (porn, sex chat etc). I had lined up a session that was quite promising. I tried not to get too excited about this but as usual, even though I was not trying to, the other person got really excited and I couldn't resist. Anyhow, after so much buildup, it all fell apart. As it usually does. I am feeling quite disheartened about this because it's not the first time I've experienced this. I am a very enthusiastic individual who has to refrain himself quite a lot because I am not good at dealing with disappointment. I am super disappointed now and I fear I might relapse. I'll try not to. Try to find another session soon.

    I used the phone line again but this time I only touched myself and forced myself not to be horny. On the plus side, it's alleviating the feeling of disappointment which I was afraid of so much. Not a total loss. Not doing so well though.
  2. rcfergie5

    rcfergie5 Guest

    Don't feel bad man, we all have our shitty feelings, but as long as you try to think positive and focus only on being positive, you'll get better in life. I believe that will make resisting PMO much easier.
  3. Antinoüs

    Antinoüs New Member

    Thanks man. I believe a good night's sleep definitely helped. I feel way less shitty today even though I'm still not there. I managed to avoid the complete relapse but had some trouble with sexual energy. But I discovered I could deal with that without release so it's an interesting progress. I am feeling calmer today and the disappointment has disappeared for the most part. I'm still a little bothered, but most of the soreness is gone, so that's a victory on that part. I'm still taking it one day at a time.

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