So far, so good. I was trying to deal with my horniness with real life sex instead of the virtual version (porn, sex chat etc). I had lined up a session that was quite promising. I tried not to get too excited about this but as usual, even though I was not trying to, the other person got really excited and I couldn't resist. Anyhow, after so much buildup, it all fell apart. As it usually does. I am feeling quite disheartened about this because it's not the first time I've experienced this. I am a very enthusiastic individual who has to refrain himself quite a lot because I am not good at dealing with disappointment. I am super disappointed now and I fear I might relapse. I'll try not to. Try to find another session soon. I used the phone line again but this time I only touched myself and forced myself not to be horny. On the plus side, it's alleviating the feeling of disappointment which I was afraid of so much. Not a total loss. Not doing so well though.