The Fellowship of the Ring [GROUP]

Re: I don't know if this has been proposed yet

Thanks for the kinds words, my man. Gonna think about you the next time I get an urge

 

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Day 6 ---- FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKK. FUCK. I relapsed. I fucking relapsed and let everybody and myself down. Yesterday I saw a girls ass with panties on, almost edged. Today, it fucked me over. My mind fucked me over. I was trying to "test" like a retard and went on a porn site. Found a really beautiful girl stripping.

Next thing I know, I jerked off THROUGH MY JEANS. Yes, through my jeans. That was a first. At least I made progess, I would never finish that fast especially through my jeans.

Dammit. Let's start again.

 

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Don't be too upset. Now you know NO edging. Some people can MO without P but some brains jut WANT the p with it too much.

 

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Yeah I feel like a hypocrite now though. I was the one going around saying " No PMO forever. Non-option."

And your doing great man, 10 days. Keep strong bro.

 

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I don't know if there are too many people here, but I'm 19 and would like to join. I'm already a decent way into my reboot but I've been looking for something like this.

 

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Hell yeah 32 days. Keep it up man you won't regret it.


BE CAREFUL AT ALL TIMES. Look what just happened to me and I thought I was doing great. Good luck man

 

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I will. And you do the same. I know it is much easier when you're not bored.

Remember, a mind without purpose will wander in dark places

 

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Thanks a ton man. I'm being really cautious of triggers... it's ridiculous how easy it is to be tempted by something small and stupid. Nevertheless, I'm determined.

 

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Oh and by the way guys. Incase your wondering how I got through my K9. I didn't.

I have an iPad and iPhone. Those fucking bastards.

I would not have relapsed if I didn't have them. I'm trying to find out a way to block them from accessing porn but I don't think there's a way. Can anyone help?

 

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YES. SO glad you asked.

K9 has an app in the app store you can find. If not I believe cloudacl can be used for android OS and well as iPhone OS.

OS=Operating System

 

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wantmylifeback, you are welcome to join. I don't know if you read the first few posts but we are trying to basically be pretty tight knit rather than just post in each other's journals so we like to post at least once a day in the group about how the day went, how we're feeling, and if someone does relapse, help them to get back on their feet.

Stoptheporno, I struggle with both things as well. I can't MO without the P, at least I haven't been able to for over 2 years now. And cell phone is how I've watched P over the last 2 years. I would get K9 for it but I have too much control over it and I know that if I wanted to, I'd just get by it. My PMO mind goes great lengths in order to get what it wants so that's a no no. I've just been relying on being with friends or being outside of the house at all times the most helpful thing. If there's no time to PMO because you're always around others, you CAN'T possibly PMO.

Today has been quite difficult. I did have some urges. Even now I'm just, for lack of a better phrase, tingling down there, even though there is absolutely no stimuli around me. (I'm with friends as I post this). My mind is really telling me to PMO and so I'm just out here struggling to recover (sorry for the pun! ;D)

I'm currently at 7 days I believe. I'm trying to get through whatever phase this may be. I know tons of people who aren't porn addicts who also don't even have girlfriends so there's no reason that I should not be able to do this. There's no reason that any of us shouldn't be able to recover. We can all do this. I'm relying on you guys, but I'm confident that you guys will make it out.

 

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On a side note, I am quite a lazy fellow. Would anyone mind compiling a list of the people who are part of this group?

 

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Thanks for the reception! I'm thrilled to be part of this. The process is much more manageable when other people are going through it with you.

 

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Hey everyone

Just read through the new posts, and I'm seeing an interesting pattern of many of us relapsing in a relatively short period of time (myself included). Is this because one of us relapses, and others start to feel that it's more acceptable to relapse as well? If so, we should strive extra hard to not be the next statistic. Or maybe it's the weekend, and people have more free time? In that case, we all need to be extra vigilant, especially as it relates to the weekend, and using all that free time more productively. These are the tips I'm implementing for myself, and I trust that it will help someone else hit their goal. Stay strong guys!

 

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You read my mind man. Before I relapsed today, I was reading a guys account of relapsing. Concidence? Fuck no.

That coupled with yesterday's image of a girls ass played a big part of the relapse.

 

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It's was the weekend. I was stuck in the middle of an essay and I can't remember why or how but basically, I PMO'd.
I learnt from it and after hours of sitting in front of the computer surfing random bullshit and eventually relapsing I decided that I shouldn't have easy access to the internet, I think that might be one of the big problems.
Right now I type this on my mums old laptop, the experience is not pleasant to say the least. (aka - I don't wish to spend hours on the internet). I suggest we all cut down a little on the screen time in our day to day lives where possible.

Today had it's up's and downs, at times I felt like a complete social outsider and at others I felt like the center off attention. I've also noticed my voice getting slightly thicker and more appealing.
I mentioned quitting porn to some friends today but they were all convinced that PMO was nothing but healthy. I didn't feel like arguing.

I hate this cycle of relapsing within the first few days, it's so easy to do and you question if you are even trying at some point. This has become a pattern for a few of us so how about we try to implement something within the group to try and get past it. Being males maybe a little bit of healthy competition could work or maybe that would just promote a loss of self confidence? Any suggestions?

So here is the list of all the group members (9) so far:
(In order of joining)
strugglingtorecover
sikkunt
abetterfuture
Serge
JerseyJay911
StopThePorno
Micheal
Jp91
wantmylifeback

There are some users who have posted advice and responses in the thread but never actually said they were joining. I've left those people out.

 

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Lol, you brought up a good point. In this way, the forums can be a double-edged sword. You can be tempted to relapse, encounter someone muscling their way through some difficult times, and be motivated to stay on track. Or you can be tempted to relapse, encounter someone relapsing, and think "I might as well".

 

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Well I guess we got to make it a rule for whoever relapses to give a detailed account of how shitty he feels to make the guys think twice.


How bout a nice sticky thread addressing this issue and giving precautions called "If you feel your about to relapse, read this". Fill it up with quotes from guys who relapsed describing the shame and disappointment.

Something like that might help.

Or write it in big letters on the top of the forum to always show, haha.

 

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That doesn't fix anything, unfortunately. I don't think it matters for the person struggling whether or not another person feels shitty after relapsing. When you're at that point, the only think you care about is that "You won't be by yourself".

 

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Yeah I thought about that after I wrote my post.

I guess fucking up is a part of this.