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Thanks for the advice guys, I'm sure going to cut down my computer usage to avoid slight temptation although being a student and a filmmaker it is hard to go without one for certain tasks.

Today for me was actually pretty awesome, with out being too specific I generally had very positive interactions with everyone around me and flirted with several girls who I normally don't really talk to and was even offered a gig directing a music video for a local singer/songwriter after having been thinking about wanting to do one over the past week, it's funny how life works like that. So far, so good. (although, it is parent/teacher night tonight so we'll have to see how that goes.)

@sikkunt @strugglingtorecover Yeah man, meditation is great although I don't know too much past the basic breathing exercises although the Isha Kriya guided meditation makes it more structured and is also very relaxing. What kind of meditation do you do sikkunt?

I need to get back into running in the mornings.

I'm thinking about starting up my journal again but it seems to be a chore to update. I enjoy updating this and interacting like this a lot more.

Also, @JerseyJay911, sikkunt and strugglingtorecover you guys should get avatars. It's nice having some sort of visual to put to the user name especially in a group like this.

It's good to hear that no one has relapsed yet, funnily enough the first week can be quite hard due to the whole, "ahh, fuck it, I can just start tomorrow" mindset. There is nothing as important as this moment right here and now.

Stay strong everyone and keep enjoying the rest of your day!

 

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@strugglingtorecover yeah man! for sure. Its one of the best discoveries I've done ever. You should serously try.
Just sit in a confortable position with your back straight, eyes close and focus on your breathing. I usually listen
to some sort of guided meditation (there is a website called fragreant heart which got some good ones for free).
Lately I've been trying "Brain Evolution"s meditations cause I've heard they are suppose to get you in a meditative
state earlier. Can write more about "brain evolution" when I've done it for a while.

@Serge fix myself an avatar

Anyway, day 4 almost over (read journal for more info about me and my life). Gonna reach my first mini-goal on friday
(7-day mark). Gonna reward myself with a night out clubbin when I make it. LETS DO THIS GUYS!

 

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Alright, I will try to fit it in my schedule sometime maybe haha..

Good to hear you're on a day 4 and more than half way to the goal. Keep it up man. YOU WILL RECOVER.

I've currently made it to day 3, or 2 now. I'm not sure which one but today wasn't bad. I actually played a sport for the first time in a while so I think that might've helped. Based off my schedule, tomorrow should be a breeze hopefully.

And I will get an avatar tomorrow, it's a bit late to search for one ha.

Keep up the good work guys.

 

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Alright guys, so here is my daily check-in/update. Today went by relatively easy. No big problems and I didn't really have many urges so that was good. I did notice that I was immensely checking out girls on campus though. So that's probably the PMO brain speaking. I think this marks day 3 and hopefully an endless number more to come.

 

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Hey guys I want to join.

I'm on day 2, feeling a little more horny than usual. I'll try to update daily and give support. We all need it.

 

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Looks like I'm the first to fuck up.

Yesterday I fell into the "SFW" trap and it continued from there. I've adjusted K9 to prevent a lot of the stuff that usually drives me to the edge (You can never be 100% safe but I did what I could). I also made it nearly impossible for me to get past k9.

It's really interesting how your primal side kicks in when you see tits. You go into caveman mode and forget all of this stuff, it's kind of scary.

Today was fine, I tried out the Brain Evolution meditation this morning and it was pretty relaxing but of course I need to give it a few weeks before I report back on any substantial differences. School sucks but there isn't much I can do about it except just be positive and wait for it to be over, I'm on the final lap.

Welcome StopthePorno, I really dug that philosophy, I have never really read any before.

Good going strugglingtorecover! Also, loving the new dp's.
Is everyone else, still holding up okay?

Also, I'm thinking we might want to movie this off of this thread as it is borderline journal stuff, could be clogging up the main "Pornography Addiction" forum and might be more suited to a more private setting anyway? Just an idea.

 

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What is "SFW"?

 

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im up for joining if you guys still have room

 

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Yeah I know what you mean by the instincts Serge. Good luck now man, don't let that get to you. I made it impossible for me to get past K9 unless I completely uninstall and reinstall my computer operation system.

I'm on day 3, still morning and doing good. Yesterday at night I had a porn flashback but I managed to get rid of it quickly. I just reminded myself how much pain it caused me.

Michael, I'm thinking all it takes to join is to post here regularly on your progress and support each other. So welcome bro and good luck to you.

 

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StopThePorno and Michael, welcome to the club.

livefreeordiehard, I'm not sure whether you're trying to imply that anything that is SFW is generally a no-no but if you genuinely don't know what it is, it means Safe For Work, aka, no hardcore kind of stuff

Serge. Don't worry about it man. I've honestly relapsed tons of times, probably more than anyone using this forum. The good thing is that you up'd your K9 security since that will help prevent binging for the next few days. I find that the initial few days, days 1-5ish are the most difficult. As long as you can get started to that, the road will only get easier.

 

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Hey guys. So as I said in my journal, today wasn't extremely difficult but at one point in the day, I got an exam back and I didn't do as well as I had hoped which really frustrated me. I was going to PMO out of instinct since that's how I've always delt with frustration but I did not and instead play video games with friends

I'm still pissed about the exam but oh well, that's the past. Just like PMO.

I would like to use this post to also remind myself and everyone to remember the reason that they want to stop PMO. For me, it goes against my religious beliefs, it makes me inherently feel bad about myself, it's an addiction and I feel inadequate and weak if I need to rely on something, and I also want to have a great relationship in the future. By not PMOing, hopefully all of these things will be resolved ;D

 

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I want in. 21 years old

 

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No I really didn't know what that means.

I got one advice for Serge then: In my case it isn't about the picture per se that triggers my porn addiction wiring, but it is the online search for stimulating material.
My addiction is deeply linked with online search - so if you see yourself in that description too, I'd say you should use computers only for work or this forum, and should stop your babe internet search behavior too.

 

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fuuuark me, morning horniness and fantasy got the best of me
bad timing, right before the weekend. Well, going back on the horse again.

@strugglingtorecover glad you suriveved the day, with the exams and all

 

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seeking help is necessary, but using courage to face our dark sides is more necessary, and there is escape from it , if cure is wanted

 

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Just doing a quick update before I hit bed.

Today was pretty solid I suppose, I went to the movies with a friend (we saw Argo) but I fell asleep and wasted money on food when I wasn't even hungry, that was frustrating.
Usually on Friday afternoons I would go by a bar on the way home that has topless waitresses from around 4pm but I skipped that today, so long as tits are out of reach I shouldn't tempt myself.

Seriously thinking of dropping out of school, I know where I want to go and I feel like it's holding me back. I hope that stress doesn't affect the reboot.

@sikkuntI'm sorry to hear you relapsed man but you're totally right, back on the horse. We'll get there in the end.

I'll catch you guys tomorrow, keep holding up everyone.

 

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last 4 days haven't been too difficult for me. The urges usually kick in day 6/7 then drop off for a while so just gotta keep busy in those two days.
How are the rest of you doing?

 

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Cravings are hitting me like a Peterbilt doing 90 downhill but I am resisting them for now. Concentration is key, and a good way for anyone to distract themselves is by looking at every detail in their surroundings rapidly. It'll force you to notice too many things at once and thus push out any tempting thoughts.

 

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Man, I posted a long reply to everyone who posted but I wasn't connected to the internet apparently and it didn't go through and I don't really feel like retyping it.

But basically, good job team. ;D

As for Serge, I'm not sure what you plan to do if you drop school but I think it'd be good to consider not dropping it since education is key in this day and age and also, it can take up a good amount of time - time that you may instead spend PMOing. But all of that depends on what your plan is if you drop school.

sikkunt, try to set an alarm for right before any activities you have in the morning so that you don't even have time to PMO

 

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I agree with recover, and without school you'll be bored, depressed and likely feel useless. I'm not sure it is healthy for you to drop out, but the decision is ultimately yours.

Recover did you get my message?