The Fellowship of the Ring [GROUP]

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by strugglingtorecover, Oct 23, 2012.

  1. JerseyJay911

    JerseyJay911 New Member

    Re: The Fellowship of the Ring

    Funny you bring that site up. I visit that site frequently. In fact, I'm on Youtube right now watching Chris's videos.. very informative. In case you didn't know, videos are at http://www.youtube.com/user/GoodLookingLoser
     
  2. sikkunt

    sikkunt New Member

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    Yeah, I love that site. Only place which has actually helped me. I think the mindset change is the most crucial thing. Like on GLL u are screening chicks to see if they are right for you, and not the other way like in all other materials. Basically just stoppped reading or checking out other materials after I discovered GLL. Did you try the phenibut-tips for anxiety?

    Fuuuark, this day sucks. Woke up feeling sick. Think I got the influenza, which means no party for me on new years eve. Gonna be hard going through the night without fapping, but ill try my best.

    Happy new years, everyone :)
     
  3. JerseyJay911

    JerseyJay911 New Member

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    I still have approach/social anxiety, and he has some really good drills up on GLL. No, but I have recently ordered phenibut, and some other supps. Looking to cycle them around, so that I don't build a tolerance to any one supp. How does phenibut work for you?
     
  4. sikkunt

    sikkunt New Member

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    I ordered a bottle of phenibut actually, figured it would be fun to try. I use it when I'm going clubbing instead of alcohol. Its good stuff. It gives a good "happy" kinda fieeling and also u stop caring what others think of you so the approaching is easier. I wouldnt use this on a daily basis tho, cause of the tolerance buildup and also one of the times I used it I got the worst hangover ever.

    What other supps have u ordered?
     
  5. JerseyJay911

    JerseyJay911 New Member

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    Cool thanks for the heads up. Chris recommends using it 3x a week max, but he's a big guy, so I think I'll go with 2x for myself. 8)
    How much did you take in order get a hangover??
    I also ordered 5htp, valerian, and holy basil. It sounds like a lot, but I plan to cycle them like I said. Building up a tolerance to them would be a waste of time and money.
    Also, have you tried any of Chris's drills for anxiety?
     
  6. sikkunt

    sikkunt New Member

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    The time I got the hangover was the first time I uesd it. Used it two days in a row, 1500 mgs both days. Seriously, it was bad. Couldnt do shit and had the worst headache ever. Used google and found coffee to be the cure. So if u have phenibut-hangover, drink coffee :)

    Sounds like a pretty good collection. U gotta keep me posted with your experiences with the different supps. 5htp sounds nice both as a bodybuilding supp and anxiety/sleep.

    Did some a few months back. Didnt feel like it helped at the time tho (might be cause of alot of PMO and cause I didnt do em consistently and whole-hearted). When I get back from the influenza ill take a trip to the mall every day and just do them. Sounds like fun! Have u done em before or u gonna do em now when u get the supps?
     
  7. JerseyJay911

    JerseyJay911 New Member

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    Yeah 1500 does seem excessive. I think standard serving is 500 mg. Yeah, I've taken a few supplements before and 5htp was the only one that really did anything. Yeah, I'm just gonna do regular cold approaches, I may incorporate the drills too, I don't know yet. No worries, I'll keep you posted !
     
  8. sikkunt

    sikkunt New Member

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    I actually had the best nights when doing 2000-2500 mgs. I followed the instructions on GLL. Worked out fine :)

    reboot wise, I am racking up a good streak now. I have been sick the last week and only been sitting at home on my computer. Looking forward to keep the streak going and get the fuck out of the house to meet people again :)
     
  9. strugglingtorecover

    strugglingtorecover Quest for freedom

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    I haven't heard from anyone in a while regarding progress. What is going on guys?
     
  10. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

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    16 days. Empty words are useless. I'll speak when I hit a month.
     
  11. wantmylifeback

    wantmylifeback New Member

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    Sorry guys, I've been in Florida on an athletic training trip the last two weeks so I haven't really had time to check in. Still going strong- about to hit 100 days and get myself a spot on the VIP list! Unfortunately the female situation I was hoping for didn't pan out, but I'm still hanging in there. How's everyone else doing?
     
  12. sikkunt

    sikkunt New Member

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    Congrats on reaching 100 days, brah. Impressive stuff, hope I'll be able to do it aswell :)

    Anyway, had sex the few days ago. Felt amazing cause of reboot. The newfound sensitivity is insane.
    Dick worked fine, but I remember I took some yohimbe earlier in the day before my workout so not sure
    if I still have ED or not. Will continue the reboot-process anway, cause I love life when I dont fap or
    view porn.
     
  13. strugglingtorecover

    strugglingtorecover Quest for freedom

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    I messed up guys. 2 hours ago a MO relapse and now a full PMO relapse.... I just don't know man. I don't know what to say. It's always the same- urges build up and you either resist them until they dwindle or you don't. You gotta live with that on a day to day basis and its not easy. Fuck. The chaser from MO got me and now I gotta hope I don't get a massive chaser and binge. It was the longest Ive ever gone without PMO by far- 82 days I believe. I really can't comprehend all these thoughts in my mind. I don't feel like a failure but I feel like I've failed. This is just too hard man. How the hell are you supposed to put up with fighting urges every single day of your life. There has to be more to it than that. I just feel bad cause I've gone 80+ days without PMOing yet I can't break free of this addiction. If after 80 days I still have to fight urges, when will they ever go away. How can any human possibly fight with their mind every day of their life? It's just too hard man.

    What I realize is the true feeling I am experiencing is fear. Fear of never being free of this. Has anyone thought about it in that sense? What if you never break free of this addiction? That's some scary shit man, and it seems that rarely anyone does break free. Everyone falls back to it. I'm scared for myself and my future. How can I completely stop this addiction? And I don't know the answers and that's why I'm afraid. I'm scared guys. I truly am. And I can't go on like this. I need to do something. What I need to do, though, I do not know. For now, I need to just avoid binging, which in itself is probably the hardest part of a relapse/reboot.

    Other than that, I don't know what to say. It's impossible to write what I am experiencing mentally right now and I just hope that everyone, myself included, can escape this nightmare
     
  14. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

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    Full blown relapse.

    Fuck porn goddamnit. My willpower almost won too. Motherfucker.

    Next time wont be so easy for porn to take me.
     
  15. sikkunt

    sikkunt New Member

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    I aint the best rebooter ever as I too have relapsed (lots of times), but the best tip I can give is to instead of fighting the urges you gotta replace the habit. Try meditation, start working out, learn an instrument, whatever. I believe that you will escape the addiction, bro. Keep up the good work. 82 days is a great accomplishment.
     
  16. astalavista

    astalavista New Member

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    Hi guys, I've decided to join your thread/the fellowship. I read the first page of it and skimmed through the rest. I understand we have a certain problem in common- PMO and the accompanying unpleasant side effects. I also noticed a lot of you seem to have relapsed recently, and it just seems like a "good" time for me to jump into the thread. Kind of serendipity, that I find this thread when I'm at the same point (no PMO since earlier this week, been trying to quit for months).

    To keep it brief: I'm a 22 year old student and I've been socially isolated/life sucks for a couple years now. I first realized I had a serious problem when I stopped PMO in preparation for the first real dating prospect I had in 2 years, and my dick and libido went into complete hibernation within a week. That was February 2012. I've been struggling on my own since then (went on 2 dates, didn't work out with the girl). I've made it to a month PMO free maybe three times since last February, and the rest of the time basically a week binge, a week off, etc.

    I decided that this time is it. I've really changed a lot in the past year and I think I finally have what it takes to kick it (PMO) for good. I feel in my gut it will take me 6 months to reboot to 100% (even if I make it to 80% after 100 days). I'm going to take a year with no PMO and no sex for six months regardless (not that I have a girlfriend, but I figure its been 2 years since I've done it, so I might as well take 6 more months of celibacy for my long term sexual health).

    So I'm joining your Fellowship of the Ring for accountability. The problem is, I've realized I need to stay away from the internet. The longer I'm on it, the higher risk of me relapsing (not a theory, I've demonstrated it over time). I've set my browser to open with 5 tabs of the only legitimate sites I need to use at home: my school's webpage, my email, BBC news, my bank, NBA homepage. Anything else (e.g. job searches on google, other sites for school) I do in the library. NO YOUTUBE, no google, no wikipedia, no nothing else. I don't like to dwell on quitting the PMO thing either, just thinking about it tends to be triggering for me. Its better for me to DO the quitting (through a jam packed schedule and strict rules) than talk/think about it (which tends to result in relapse for me).

    I apologize for the long post but I'm not keeping a journal, just this thread. It seems like a long way off, but I won't be back until May 1, 2013. That will be 100 days for me. I'll check in with you guys then. Running with the Fellowship of the Ring analogy (let me nerd out here for a second), I'm gonna go all Aragorn here and disappear to go through the Path of the Dead, but I'll catch y'all in Minas Tirith at the end of a major battle- on May 1, 2013 (100 days for me).

    See you on the other side, hope to find you PMO free in May- and next January, because I'm making it til then (continuing to check in here).

    PS: (From Serge on November 5, I don't know how to quote):

    "So here is the list of all the group members (9) so far:
    (In order of joining)
    strugglingtorecover
    sikkunt
    abetterfuture
    Serge
    JerseyJay911
    StopThePorno
    Micheal
    Jp91
    wantmylifeback"

    + astalavista
     
  17. strugglingtorecover

    strugglingtorecover Quest for freedom

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    If you still haven't disappeared, welcome man! If you ever need support, you know where to find us.
     
  18. Michael

    Michael New Member

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    Yeah I'm still going on day 81/82
     
  19. wantmylifeback

    wantmylifeback New Member

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    Wow, it's been a while since I've checked in. Day 118 and this just keeps getting easier! As long as I keep in the back of my mind that I can't let my guard down, I'm never even worried anymore. I have a girlfriend (kinda) now and although we haven't had sex (she's a virgin), I'm always rock hard when we fool around. Hope everyone else is doing well!
     
  20. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

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    I am doing ok, you can find details in my journal about what happened today, but as you can see by the counter I am changing the rules.

    I will accept MO every couple weeks only if needed in order to keep me from doing anything stupid.

    I also am going to ask my friends in real life to keep me accountable.

    This running from confessing irl is cowardly, makes the reboot harder, and must end NOW.

    If I have the people in my life hold me accountable/have my back, it'll help a lot.

    Resetting a counter here gets me upset, but failing those I know personally and not being able to lie about it is another story alltogether.

    Wantmylifeback, I am glad to see you doing so well, keep going, I hope you never have to be drowned in the evils of porn ever again.

    As for me, today wasn't a PMO, but peeking should not be acceptable at this stage, and MO should *only* be a necessity.
     

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