The Beginning Of The Curse's End

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  1. MindPoison

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    Hahaha just having some fun, man, so refining my skills you could say, I made her laugh a few times, so that was a success :D. Just recently I realized that flirting is basically saying romantic lines but in a comedic way (well, that's one way of flirting besides the physical stuff), not sure why some guys turn it into some kind of rocket science.
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  2. MindPoison

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    Day 70 Sunday:

    Unfortunately penis is pretty much numb, no morning wood, but that despite all that I'm pretty happy with my progress so far, the few times I did get an erection it felt more sensitive to touch than it used to be, possibly a sign that recovery is on the horizon?
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    Day 75 Friday:

    Some minor inconveniences this week in terms of life, but nothing major. Pretty much numb down there, haven't had any cravings to masturbate or watch porn at all during this week that passed by, seems like it's gonna be smooth sailing from here on out.
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    Day 77 Sunday:

    An easy day today pretty much, no cravings. I've been having a pretty good time with a new painting I'm making. Lifted some weights today, something I've been wanting to do again for some time.
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    Day 80 Wednesday:

    So far so good. Couple of says ago after I struck up a conversation with some chick that always says hi to me at her job close to where I work I ended up getting an erection while talking with her, but sadly it was semi-hard, semi flaccid :( looks like I still have a long way to go, but I did manage to get her phone number.

    On the other hand, I've learned how to comfort myself emotionally when I'm down thanks to a book I've been reading, so my confidence levels rose as a side effect of that since it made me even more comfortable in my own skin than I already was. I never knew you could comfort yourself when you're upset by telling yourself comforting words inside your head like a mother would, just goes to show you how emotional abandonment as a child can disconnect you from your sense of self and make you desperate for external validation, it was a long healing process for me. Interesting enough, we attract emotionally unavailable people into our lives when we aren't capable of comforting ourselves and instead look for external validation.
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  6. 200DaysMission

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    Dude this is amazing! Congrats.
    I've never had the guts to get a girl's number like this, how do you do it?

    Also, is your goal to get a 100% erection just while talking to a girl you're attracted to, and have only recently met?
    Maybe that's possible, but perhaps it's setting a high standard, unless you've got good reason to expect this. As I'm sure that very few men consistently achieve these heights without either some physical touch or being in a private/intimate setting, or without letting feelings develop over time :)
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    When she said hi to me I just took the chance to ask her if she was new working there since I've never seen her around until recently. After that we had a quick conversation and introduced ourselves, and by the end of it I asked for her number. I haven't seen her since then since because of her shift. I'll be seeing her next week in the morning, though, but we do chat here and there on Whatsapp.

    As for the erection, well, hopefully you're right. My erections are still weak/non-existent, and I only get morning wood once in a while.
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  8. MindPoison

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    Tuesday 13 July 2021, Day 86:

    Almost had a screw up with porn, but managed to escape it fast and easily two days ago. Still flirting with that acquaintance I mentioned before, I haven't had this much fun in forever xD
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  9. 200DaysMission

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    Haha, YES!
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    Day 87 Wedsneday:

    Sleep deprived due to last night's dinner which didn't digest fast enough before bed, had some annoying cravings during the day, cannot wait to call it a day.
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    Day 90 Saturday:

    Had a wet dream last night... well, if you can even call it a dream, it was all black, yet I ended up with an orgasm and woke up, really weird. On the positive side I completed 3 months without intentionally having an orgasm. Here's to another 3 months. :)
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    Congratulations for 90 days!
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  13. MindPoison

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    Thanks man! Just about to reach 100 days too. :)

    Day 96 Friday:

    Had a close call with porn about two days ago due to sleep deprivation, but thankfully Blocksite, an extension of Chrome, saved my life. Penis is sometimes sensitive to touch, but most of the time numb. Even though it's sometimes sensitive it doesn't get hard though even though it does grow.
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    Day 100 Tuesday:

    First time ever reaching 100 days! Hallelujah! Woke up with morning wood that felt sensitive to touch, sadly it was short-lived. I will say, however, that when I do way wake up with morning wood now it does feel more sensitive to touch than before.

    I complimented the acquaintance that I flirt with sometimes and ended up getting an erection. According to what I read online when you compliment someone you get a dose of oxytocin, so I guess that explains the erection and why I felt more relaxed afterwards.
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  15. -Luke-

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    You're doing great!
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  16. 200DaysMission

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    Huge congrats, that's really fantastic.
    Do you feel proud?
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  17. MindPoison

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    Thanks guys! Yeah, of course I feel proud. It's the first time I ever made some huge progress since I started rebooting. Definitely looking forward to reaching New Year's Eve without intentionally having an orgasm. Even though I'm still in a flatline things are slowly getting more sensitive down there which is giving me some hope.
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    Day 106

    No cravings today. A couple of days ago I looked up porn, but got bored with it almost immediately. It's interesting, I have more self-control while watching it also. No desire to look it up again since that day.
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    Day 107:

    Overall quiet day. Worked on a creative project. No cravings whatsoever.
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    Day 109:

    Another day gone by. No cravings whatsoever again. Unfortunately, the little amount of sensitive feeling my penis had is basically gone again, so once again numb down there.
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