Exactly, these recovery or half recovery moments are short lived for me too. Also i get hyper arousal, and deep flatlines alternations, unfortunately, the deeper flatlines are more dominant. Hopefully with longer abstinence, our bodies readjust and find the right balance. I also get hard mw sometimes, not consistent. After hours of research, the shriveled up penis, could also be a sign of pelvic floor dysfunction or hard flaccid. To make sure if you had this or not. Compare your flaccid size using this method: After laying down on bed for some time, completely relaxed, stand up, wait 2 minutes, if ur flaccid size shrinks and hardens up, as if it's made of rubber, then you definitely have hard flaccid If when peeing, ur penis relaxes, and the shriveled look is temporarily reversed, another red flag you have hard flaccid. Try to do a plank exercise until your abdominal starts shaking, stand up and see if your penis has shrinked as bad as it could, yes definitely hard flaccid. Hard flaccid shares pied symptoms, low libido, genital numbness, difficulty getting and maintaining erections, fortunately it's reversable, but unfortunately, lots of work and presistence are waiting for you. This will take 3 to 5 months of hard work dping stretching and core strengthening exercises to get nice improvements. Numbness should go away, when a healthy blood flow goes through the penis for several hours. I think this is why, i have a better libido, and more responsive penis in the mornings.... If you have hard flaccid, you probably have this too. These are my own conclusions, i might not be 100% correct. I have a question for you, you havent used or aren't taking antidepressants or propecia right? If that's the case, that's another thing which could give pied like symptoms.