Hi Cosmo, Welcome to the forum. I suppose you are well intended in your entry here. I think, however, you have overlooked a few things. First, my journal has always and only been a place where I am brutally self-honest, a place for soul-searching reflection and process. Of all my faults, denial is not one of them. I am a pornography and arousal addict. Read from the beginning and you will see that I have made no attempt to hide that. I have merely brought to the table of critical scrutiny how best to address the addiction. Second, I have a rather protracted history with several of the members here, those who have in my view misused the forum in order to import their own conservative attitudes regarding sexuality. I cannot blame them for this, except inasmuch as their tenets have overridden the basic scientific/phenomenological orientation and principles of the site as set down at YBoP. Make no mistake. They are not trying to help me. They are trying to beat me into compliance. They only show up like this (confrontational, insisting on something being wrong with me, denigrating my space) when I have only a few days or hours after a relapse. This is another aspect of the diseased sociology here: respect from many members correlates with counter time. This is all quite childish. I wish you all wisdom and good fortune in your recovery, cosmo. Not all here are like this. Some of us truly do care. Peace, brother.