I chose LTE as a username because LTE stands for Long Term Evolution and my problems are long term indeed. I have always had a weakness for erotic material, even as a small child. There was none available in the home I grew up in but almost anything even slightly revealing could arouse me and I could and would remain aroused for hours on end. I started masturbating at 14 and was chronic for years. Eventually I got married to a wonderful woman but, predictably, masturbation undermined the marriage. Over the years I've gotten much less prone to masturbate and had some long-term successes but also some relapses. Strangely, the problem came back when I started into a relationship with another woman, a person I love deeply. We have not been intimate, she's in no hurry and I respect that. Unfortunately, when I'm around her I find that my level of desire increases and, on occasion, I've lapsed into Internet PMO. I found yourbrainonporn quite accidentally just a few days ago while surfing for porn. I read the information and was astounded. It answered questions I've had for decades. I always felt that my porn weakness and the fapping that accompanied it were not actually sexual in nature. I felt like it was something different entirely. A good round of sex was entirely different that a fapping session. What puzzled me the most was the fact that in my day-to-day life I don't desire an exciting sex life. I am very much a one woman man and want a stable marriage. I have an eye for beauty but have matured enough to realize that it is only skin deep. What I want most in life is a companion and friend that I can share my life with. I'm a soft-hearted guy that wants a natural relationship with a woman but my PMO has ruined my life. The dopamine cycle described at yourbrainonporn has made sense of all this and I started a reboot the moment I read it. Just understanding the process is a huge advantage. Years ago, I actually tried to research some of this for myself but there wasn't much available. Talking to a doctor resulted in "masturbation is normal" which was useless and false information. I used to be religious and sought help there only to be ridiculed, gossiped about and scorned. The info at yourbrainonporn and this forum is priceless. BTW, after only three days of reboot I feel better. I never used to be able to understand how a man could be attracted to an overweight woman but just today I felt my attitude change. I realize that having a partner is one of life's finest gifts and that we all need to keep our standards realistic. Thanks for being here.