I wrote this following one year of no porn and no masturbation. I wish to share it in hopes that it will be a source of strength and symbol of "you are not alone" in regaining control of your life. ----------------------------------- As of November 27th 2012 it has been a year since I've viewed pornography and masturbated or masturbated period. In the beginning it was extremely difficult to resist the urge and the grasp that pornography had on me. I did find out that I was not alone (by searching the internet) in my battle and it affected men of all ages and walks of life. It not only affects men directly but it damages and in some cases destroys relationships. I managed to walk the line between damage and destroy when it came to my relationships for years. I feel into the porn masturbation pit around the year 2000 and dwelled there until I accepted the fact that I had a problem but I was in a person denial as to what was the source of my problem. I went to the doctor once complaining about my inability to achieve and maintain an erection with my woman. He asked me questions about my health and my relationships but he never asked about my use of porn or masturbation. He gave me a prescription for a Cialis medication which helped but I still wasn't right it was more of a band aid on a knife wound. My problem was that my libido became severely damaged to the point where sex with did not excite me the way that it should. I was lucky enough encounter situations where I was able to have sex with women that men dream about and lust after but I was unable to become functional physically even though in my mind I wanted to engage. There was some sort of disconnect preventing me from experiencing the proper level of arousal. My libido was severely damaged buy long term exposure to hardcore internet porn and masturbation. I decided it was time to take control of my life and kick my addiction to porn and masturbation. I'm not going to say that it was easy by any means it may have been the most difficult thing I've done in my life. I wasn't the worst offender but I was pretty bad I used to masturbate most nights to relax myself and put myself to sleep. There were even some weekends where I'd masturbate a few times a day. Believe it or not there were withdrawal symptoms my body became used to the constant dopamine hits from masturbating. I experienced sleeplessness, headaches, mood swings, and total loss of libido for a few weeks in the beginning of my rebooting process. There were days when my will power was tested but I kept myself busy buy going to the gym after work and enrolling in online college classes. Once I reached my threshold things became a lot easier to deal with to the point where I did not even think about porn or masturbating. This may have nothing to do with it but since I've kicked PMO (porn-masturbation-orgasm) my thinking and my mind has become a lot sharper. As I mentioned above I enrolled in online college classes I seriously kicked *** in these classes. My ability to retain knowledge is many times stronger and I can focus much better. Trust me when I say this as my Dad used to often say "Its Mind Over Matter” you can regain your sexual power and feel whole again. If you try and relapse don't let that discourage you! Brush yourself off and get your *** in gear and try again. Always remember why your are rebooting, the benefits and the self confidence that you will regain. I met an attractive woman a few weeks ago in a supermarket while I was talking to her I could actually feel my body reacting to her sensuality. My pulse quickened my breathing deepened and I was actually worried that I might sprout an erection that may show through my dress slacks and embarrass myself. This is coming from a guy who was struggling to get hard with an attractive naked woman in his bed a few months ago. Trust me REBOOTING WORKS just leave the porn alone and go through the process. The only obstacle between you and a healthy sex life is yourself.