TAKING CONTROL OF MYSELF

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by Lifeisbeautiful, Jan 23, 2013.

  1. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Where'd your counter go? And loving the attitude.
     
  2. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Thanks for the concern hogus. I explained that in my earlier posts that I am using this site on my mobile phone. So the counter is not visible to me. I could still keep it but a few times I was told of it getting reset. So to avoid confusion, I am not keeping it. Instead of that I am keeping track of the days myself.
     
  3. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Day 35: Just the kind of day I was looking forward to. Started off late today but did some good amount of exercise. Then I remained refreshed throughout the day. Had some minor headache in the morning for unknown reasons (after the exercise, May be those who talk about headache from dopamine rush would be interested here). But, all was well later in the day. Mood, as it's been, is stable. Confidence is still improving. Now, I can experience positive changes in almost all aspects as I hoped for when I started this reboot. Don't take it wrong, My life is still more or less the same. But now everything looks so amazing to me. It looks like as if a big burden is off my shoulder. That's a wonderful feeling. That's also a huge motivation to go on. I may not be posting the progress numerically now. The reason is because I have had big improvements. It's just difficult to compare two days now! Unless obviously I have a woefully bad or wonderfully good day!
     
  4. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    I have a question for you friends. During your abstinence from masturbation, Have you noticed any change in the structure of dick. I have noticed it recently, that my dick seems to be thicker at the tip and thinner at the root. Have anybody else noticed similar change? It's new for me So can't call it an abnormality. I am on day 36 of no M.
     
  5. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    I haven't seen that specific change but I have seen a change. It doesn't mean anything.
     
  6. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    I did not get you hogus. But I am a little confused about it. I never noticed it when I used to M. It still has not decreased my motivation to abstain but it's better to be sure.
     
  7. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Day 36: Just to add to what I mentioned a little while ago, I notice such change when my dick is in semi erect condition. When I get boners, it gets fully erect with no abnormal thing to note. Talking about the day, It was another well managed day. Now I would just look to continue the good work. Urges to M specifically have vanished like anything. I don't get any urge for P as well if I keep things simple. I think, I myself complicate things sometimes. Anyway, Exercising is also helping me to channelise my energy into more productive activity. My health has improved. I am feeling better atm. But need to be ready for anything.
     
  8. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Well everyone's dick has physically changed during the reboot, in some way. It doesn't really mean anything.
    Mine is slightly thinner but a solid half inch longer when MOing without P.
     
  9. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Day 39: So I have been through some of the most difficult days recently. I am afraid my confidence is on a decline. Resistance tends to slip innumerable times. I have to admit, I haven't had the best of the control, which I should be having. At this critical stage, When it can be a MAKE OR BREAK, for me, I decide to give myself the final push. The final surge of motivation. Motivation, that has brought me so far. I know, It's been a difficult road, But when I see so many here longing to be in my position, It becomes all the more Inspiring for me to move on. I tried to start things afresh a few days back but without success, as I flirted with danger many times after that. That's not it. Here on March, 3, I announce my freedom from PMO completely. Don't take me wrong, I have not relapsed. I have neither masturbated nor edged during there 39 days. I have had absolute control on that. It's just my brain longing for porn, and my resistance slipping off that I need to correct. It's good to start a fresh journey from here. I know it's going to be easier than starting after a relapse. But at the same time, It's gonna be very important because it will certainly give a direction to my future.
     
  10. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Day 40: So, I have made it to 40 days. That is a tremendous achievement, something I could not have imagined 6 months back. I will take big motivation from it. Today, brain fog has hit me. My mind needs rest. Probably I would fall off to sleep right now. Let's see how the day goes after that.
     
  11. OnTheBall

    OnTheBall New Member

    Well done life is beautiful on the 40 days. Things get better just remember that.

    Keep going, you will win.

    Stay Strong
     
  12. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Thanks On the ball. So the brain fog did fade away later in the day. I had am overall good day. Trying to get my life back on track. And I think it's a positive start. Let's see how I feel in next to days. Need to show some positivity now.
     
  13. J.P.

    J.P. Active Member

    To answer your question on the change, I have DEFINITELY noticed it in me. My flaccid size is much bigger, and getting horny produces much better erections when I abstain. PMO kills the dick way worse than regular MO, trust me on that one.
     
  14. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Thanks Jp for replying.
    Day 42: So, Last 2 days have been good. I am begining to find a new energy and motivation. No more slip ups. I would look to continue it forever. Exercising daily is begining to become a habit. Another thing that I want to share with you all is that I have not had any wet dreams after that hatrick on day 26 or so. That's little unusual for me. Hope I am still heading towards the better.
     
  15. AlphaSonic

    AlphaSonic New Member

    Wow 42 days. Have your urges begun to simmer down at all? So wish I could make it to 20 never mind 42! Keeo going! The days will fly by ! well done!
     
  16. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Thanks a lot alpha. Yes the urges have decreased by a mile. Now they are very less tempting. Also, they occur much less frequently.
    Day 43: Now this is very strange. I talked about wet dream last night(before going to bed) and Lo and Behold, I had the first wet dream in 15 days. This time, I was half awake during the dream as it happened in the morning(before I woke up). It was of sex with a girl. Not related to porn in anyway. This brain is a difficult thing to understand. I thought about it and I had it. Anyway, I am looking forward to another ACTIVE day.
     
  17. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    That is great news!
     
  18. Cheese

    Cheese New Member

    YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT A COINCIDENCE THIS IS. The last wet dream I had was very fucking suspicious indeed. Before going to sleep, I was contemplating whether or not to sleep only in boxers just in case I ended up having a wet dream. And that's exactly what happened. I slept in boxers and woke up from a wet dream. It was a remarkable coincidence. Incredibly uncanny.
     
  19. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    It's happened to me a few times now. Whenever I think about wet dream before going to bed, I get it. That's strange. But still it was quite a time when I last had it. So there had to be a release sooner or lateri
     
  20. Lifeisbeautiful

    Lifeisbeautiful Active Member

    Day 44: Things are looking up here. Managed to exercise daily. Last few days have been really nice. That's a good feeling after a series of rough days. Confidence is high. May be I am in a flatline now. It's just great to feel so natural and myself now. I rarely struggle during a conversation now. Looks like everything is improving. Mood is stable. This weekend is gonna be crucial. Need to keep myself on track.
     

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