Taking back my d̶i̶c̶k̶ - as it turns out, my entire life.

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by hogus, Oct 22, 2012.

  1. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Re: 19 years old, at university

    20 days no MO!! Come on flatline, where the hell are you...
     
  2. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Re: 19 years old, at university

    Day 44: Is this the flatline? Feeling more stressed (though that might be work) and libido is way down. Though not completely flat at night.

    Ow blue balls owwwww :eek:
     
  3. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Re: 19 years old, at university

    Day 45: This would be the flatline.

    I thought it would be a nice break from the urges but I feel really stressed. Not sure which one I'd prefer! Probably the urges tbh...
     
  4. N3R0

    N3R0 New Member

    Re: 19 years old, at university

    wow man you are doing really good! :D
     
  5. hogus

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    Yeah, it's not too shabby. It just takes way too long!
     
  6. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Re: 19 years old, at university

    Day 46: Same except 50% morning wood and slight genuine libido. Not enough to do anything with though.

    I firmly believe any Os in the first 3 weeks set you back to 0. And that you should only M in the flatline when you genuinely have libido to M with, not to self-medicate or if you have to force it up (as will be the case for most of the flatline). No opinion on fooling around since it's not an option for me.
     
  7. NewTerritories

    NewTerritories virtual

    Re: 19 years old, at university

    Looks like you're doing great.

    These short, regular-ish updates make your thread easy to read.
     
  8. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 47: The same really...

    I'll probably only update when something actually happens. Brace yourself YBR, you're going to hear about every flatline boner I get :D
     
  9. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 48: Had a dry dream about a girl I know, we didn't have sex but we were naked and touching each other up. Woke up and stayed super horny for 2 hours. What kind of shitty flatline is this?!
     
  10. hogus

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    Day 49: Some MO urges. Rubbish flatline.
     
  11. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 50: Rubbish flatline is rubbish. Wouldn't even call it a flatline anymore. Woke up with the bluest balls I have ever EVER had and a 90% boner. M'd to sensation but thought of a girl, not even sexually, to O.

    So in conclusion, after a 1 day flatline and couple days of urges, relapsed.
    Meh.

    But the "hangover"/dopamine headache isn't anywhere near the amount I had when I MO'd in November. Don't know if that's because I lasted about 3mins or because I've recovered a bit more... who knows.
     
  12. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 51: I reckon I've been set back 1-2 weeks.

    Well my record is now 4 weeks no MO, if I aim for 6 now then hopefully 6 weeks later I'll have mostly recovered.
     
  13. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 52-55: MO urges happened, then they didn't etc. They're a lot easier to handle this time round.

    I have absolutely no desire to watch P. At all. Ever.

    I'm highly irritable though and have headaches again. Therefore I have moved back into my hardcore phase.

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gyCpnbmF1dg ;)

    Though when I have headaches I have no urges.. weird.
     
  14. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    I'm pretty sure I can feel the low dopamine in this flatline. Not in and of itself, but if I have some sugar, watch a TV episode, play guitar or something, I instantly feel temporarily better. But 5mins later I'm grumpy, irritable and have a headache again.
     
  15. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 55-57: yeah.
    Day 58: Woke up with 90% morning wood and have some libido. Not really flatlining right now.
     
  16. hogus

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    Day 59: Fucks sake. I somehow ended up sleeping prone and my dick was rubbing (and hard) against the bed all night and when I woke up I was SUPER horny. I sat there for 10mins trying to relax and my usual urge stopping techniques but my brain wasn't having any of it. Jacked one off to an 80% boner and no fantasy. I'm ridiculously sensitive down there, came in 2mins...
     
  17. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 60: 60 days no porn yeah buddy! Tbh not looking at porn is easy for me, it's not Ming.
    Also 90% morning wood.
     
  18. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 60-64: Low-moderate urges and loneliness. I will go out looking for girls when I finish rebooting, promise ::)
     
  19. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 66: That makes one week of solid, extremely vivid dreams. While I have nothing against the dreams, they're just weird sometimes but kind of interesting, they make me sleep longer (an entire sleep cycle!) and I don't wake up properly refreshed. Apparently it's quite common after quitting an addiction and it's something to do with seratonin uptake...
    It's OK for now since it's xmas break but I can't be sleeping 11 hours in term time :-\
     
  20. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

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    Day 67: Flatlining again I believe - super stressed and wired and having sex is the last thing on my mind.
     

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