Taking back my d̶i̶c̶k̶ - as it turns out, my entire life.

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by hogus, Oct 22, 2012.

  1. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Had a sex dream last night. Was getting a blowjob off a girl I know, and I don't care that it was a dream, it was basically real. Everything except the setting (we were on a park bench?). The bitch stopped right as I was about to cum and said "you need to work for the rest" and I woke up with the bluest. Balls. Ever.

    Arghhh!

    Funny thing is I know she wouldn't do that IRL.
     
  2. iHaveSeenEvil

    iHaveSeenEvil Do it for her, the mother of my children.

    I always seem to wake up right before I come in my dreams.
    Like every time, it's obnoxious lol.
     
  3. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    MO'd. It wasn't really a relapse. It's something that's been on the back of my mind for a while now, I felt like I was ready for some occasional MO. So I'll see how the next few weeks go but so far so good.
     
  4. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Day 1 no MO: So far so good still. Libido is moderate and consistent. Woke up really wishing there was a girl in front of me that I could go down on.. before you know it I had a full hard on.
     
  5. Big Lebowski

    Big Lebowski Member

    I think its safe to say that you're nearly done here then with them results!! good progress man.
     
  6. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    If this keeps up over the next month or so then I'll agree. Still need to play it safe until I get some rewiring in though.
     
  7. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Day 2 no MO: Still got dat dere libido.

    Hopefully my next 30 posts in this thread are exactly the same as this.
     
  8. Daimon

    Daimon Member

    How's the meditation and libido doing right now, bro?
     
  9. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Meditation's ok, haven't really gone for any weird erections lately though.

    Libido is THROUGH THE ROOF. Holy motherfucking shitballs. How do I know it's libido? Well it's a drive for sex. I don't just know masturbation to be secondary, but I feel that it's like that as well. I feel like if I MO'd now it might dampen my libido to more manageable levels but it won't really fulfil me. I think this is how it should be. Just need to see how my erections are doing with girls, by actually meeting new girls...
     
  10. Big Lebowski

    Big Lebowski Member

    Shit, man. That sound's good a bit intense I don't know how I would handle that, I need to prepare for it. You're doing really well, keep doing whatever you're doing dude. Im sure once you got a girl and a bit of rewiring you're pretty much done here man.
     
  11. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    There's been a few times I've got some libido, freaked and relapsed.

    Time to step it up. Going out every week, online dating etc. 358 success stories in a forum of nearly 10k is very sobering but I will one day be part of that 3%...
     
  12. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    I just realized I really wanted a blowjob and got a boner.
     
  13. Universal

    Universal Guest

    Top news. Best of luck finding someone man
     
  14. Universal

    Universal Guest

    This sounds a lot like your meditation experiences

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBOSqgPg8jc
     
  15. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Had a wet dream. Good stuff: no sensation involved. Bad: it was pornographic... I always wake up right before I have a wet dream O and managed to hold most of it back. I actually feel pretty good right now, don't remember the dream at all and my libido (not my cravings) shot up. That was at 5am, couldn't get to sleep afterwards though.

    I'm going to try weekly MO on Sundays. Now that my libido seems to be making all kinds of gains, I don't think I'll go backwards if I MO, but obviously I won't go forwards without rewiring.
     
  16. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    I can't particularly relate to his technique for inducing it but it definitely sounds like that!

    I haven't been able to hit that spot recently so I'm going to read that book at some point.
     
  17. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Removed my no MO counter since I'm not strictly sticking to no MO anymore. I'm just not going to do it more than once a week.

    Fapped last night, it was fine. Satiated me a bit. But now I'm straight back to wanting way more with the full understanding that neither P or M will satisfy me.
     
  18. bikeguy

    bikeguy Member

    Damn, it seems like you've been fapping a lot lol. Any prospects out there when it comes to meeting women?
     
  19. hogus

    hogus Well-Known Member

    Unfortunately not.

    Just fapped but with PE and not fully hard. Looks like I'm not quite ready for regular MO yet so I'm going to keep abstaining from it and bring back my no MO counter.

    Also getting rid of my no P counter since after 400 days I have absolutely 0 craving for it and I'm never going to watch it again.
     
  20. So your relapse was only MO?
     

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