This is a phenomenon I'm sure most of you are familiar with. I decided to dub it surfer's impulse as it is most common, at least in me, when I'm surfing the web. Essentially I have found the main feature of my porn addiction to be the impulsive consumption of videos and pictures while online without any real premeditation: something flips the switch and I'm over the edge. I immediately begin thinking of the porn, feeding off the memories of girls, videos and experiences past, and then I'm typing in an address, or loading up my precious USB vault. This is what makes it so difficult after all: once the idea blossoms in your head you are only 5 seconds and a few clicks of a few keystrokes away from your favourite porn site or videos. I took advantage of some emotional upheaval a month ago that killed my libido to quit porn. In addition, I went hiking for a week after that with no internet, and without much privacy I was unable to fap either. But when I came home and went though the motions on my PC, all those familiar sensations came back to me, and it wasn't long before I began to feel some uncontrollable impulses. Though I'm here today with over a month's abstinence under my belt, I doubt I could have come much closer to giving in than last week. That was because of surfer's impulse. I don't need to be aroused by imagery, and of course I don't need to feel horny. It's almost a kind of habituation which kicks in once a few stars align: I've got free time; I'm on my own; I feel bored; I'm relaxed. BAM the sexual ideation begins and I go through the motions in my head. By this point the battle is almost lost. Does this description of addiction seem familiar to people here? In what way do you lose control when online?