Hope you don't mind me adding this post to the large amount of PMs I sent you (posting this in public since it may be of use to severe porn addicts going through these kinds of symptoms), just a few quick questions about how your recovery went. 1. When orgasming from masturbation, did it feel like the orgasm set you all the way back to the start of recovery, or did it feel more like it put you back a few weeks or something? (This happened to me at the end of August, I lost this increased motivation and focus which I had for 4 days prior, but I didn't feel like everything I gained was lost, if that makes any sense, the hangover only lasted for 18 hours and hell, my energy levels were through the roof in the days after! Other symptoms fluctuated of course.) 2. Did wet dreams give you a noticeable set back? (They don't for me.) 3. While you were recovering over the course of the last two years, your mood shifts and improvements in symptoms, did they improve all at the same time, or at times did certain symptoms improve while other ones didn't? This is more specifically during the brief highs, not the gradual improvement. (It seems to be the case for me, I only PMOed for four years so my recovery time may be a little shorter.) 4. In regards to one of your earlier posts from 2013, you mentioned "ADHD" symptoms as one of the results of an orgasm. How did this feel exactly? You couldn't absorb information well or just couldn't pay attention to something for long? (I have symptoms like this at the moment, they were really bad but now they seem to be improving quite a bit, fluctuate of course but it's a good sign. Often times it's the kind of ADD where you just skim everything you read.) 5. Not really a question about recovery, but rather before you found YBOP. What do you believe causes some of the "withdrawal" symptoms to pop up before you actually start abstaining from porn intentionally. And why doesn't looking at porn (when you got these symptoms I mean) erase all of the withdrawal symptoms? (I experienced the same thing. I asked on the forum a while ago about this but they didn't really give me a straight answer as they were focusing on other things I said...it was kinda dumb.) Could this be your so used to porn that looking at porn at that point is like a crack addict needing to snort a 5CM line of Cocaine but instead only being given a 1CM line? That's my way of describing this. (And yes, if I came across something that really stimulated me, it would make me feel slightly better, but not by much as it wasn't strong enough.) In relation to the last question. Porn did make my misery a little bit more bearable, but in turn it made me into an unfocused, numbed out, kinda stoner like (no offence, know not everyone who smokes pot is like that) while actively engaging in PMO. This is how I felt right before my current streak. That fades away after I stop, but makes me a lot more anxious and uncertain if it's PMO causing my symptoms or not (but, again, that seems to be a very common fear on this thread). Hope you are doing well with your life and all that good stuff, your story is very helpful to all of us!