Thanks for the reply Altruism, it was quite useful. I guess my case wasn't quite as deep as yours, but pretty damn close as you said you haven't had many issues avoiding porn for the last few years. But I do get urges every so often, yet only now my brain can say "NO!" to them. Perhaps that's my frontal lobes working like they should? Currently I am sorting out any possible underlying issues that may slow down the recovery of my brain (I know for certain that many of the really horrid symptoms are PMO withdrawal, as they only started in recent months when I really tried to cut into my porn use and my symptoms fluctuated when I cut porn out entirely) and planning on doing a strict meditation routine in a few weeks once I am ready. IF you don't mind, I have 3 more questions to ask when you have some time to come here. And I must apologize if I seem very one sided, it's just I am mainly asking these questions if they could help my recovery in some way or another. 1. During your long recovery, did you ever get these very brief moments (like, maybe a few seconds, a minute or so) where you felt like your symptoms improved by a shit ton (like, for a brief moment you felt your ADHD go away completely, anhedonia goes etc?) and then disappear? This has happened to me a few times, the way I look at it is if it's like my brain is giving me a small taste of an improvement (this started after cutting out Porn, this even occurred a day or two after I orgasmed to porn fantasy, which implies that an orgasm isn't quite as bad for me as it is for others?) that is to come a few weeks/months down the line? Last time this happened earlier this month, I felt the empty head feeling go away for a few minutes. Haven't felt that good in my mind in ages. Same with the derealization, which may be connected. 2. This one may be a little demanding, a rough estimate of how much you recovered over the span of a few months will be very useful. Like, by what percentage you improved in the span of 3 months? (e.g. 3 Months: 5% - 20% and 6 months: 15% - 40%) 3. This one isn't really as important as the others, it's just I want to know your opinion on this. On the Subreddit NoFap, many of the members there have a very...peculiar attitude towards all forms of artificial dopamine stimulation. Now, not saying that living an understimulating life (like doing meditation or spending time in nature) is bad or stupid, but they tend to guilt trip people who still enjoy listening to music and playing video games (even if they aren't addicted). They use the whole "NoFap isn't about porn addiction (bullshit), it's about becoming a better man". IF it isn't about porn addiction, than why the fuck do almost all the people on that board complain about PIED and those other mental health problems that porn seems to induce? Things that I don't recall music or video games (unless they are REALLY taken to the extreme, but not PIED) inducing. This insults me, as one of the many reasons I am going through with this is because I want to enjoy music, video games, reading, writing and talking to friends the way I used to prior to starting this active PMO lifestyle 4 years ago. Seeing people tell others that they should just give up their hobbies (this doesn't apply to those who chose to give it up, as that happens) just sickens me, and only adds stress to my already terrible mental state. These people don't believe in free will. Just a quick update: My emotional responsiveness has shown signs of improving, and my feelings of "want" (urge to want to do something basically) are coming back (the latter occurred during the initial superpower type state, but that was weaker at the start of my current streak than before earlier this year, probably a result of burning out my dopamine receptors?). And believe it or not, I have had a few little moments where I felt my libido improve without any porn fantasy occurring. Like you say, this is up and down, so it's not constant yet...but it will be, soon. 70 days in and things are looking pretty good. The other fact is I am trying to sort out my other underlying health issues (going to get checked for hormone and thyroid problems just to be safe, and treating Candida overgrowth, which may have resulted in my PMO symptoms and addiction getting so bad in the first place) while I deal with this should also help speed up my recovery. At least I am getting these things sorted out while I am 19 rather than in my 20s...just sucks its so unpleasant to go through. Oh, here is what my NoPMO routine is: Currently lack a girlfriend to have sexual contact with (this will be corrected soon I hope...), so my routine is No Porn (of course, not an option anymore basically), minimal masturbation (been trying to rewire to touch/realistic fantasy with mixed results, still struggling to really get it up without porn fantasy) and virtually no orgasms. The reason I am avoiding orgasm is because I want to wait until I have sorted any possible underlying health problem out before I start experimenting with it again. The post-orgasm hangover...while not all that debilitating (only lasts 3 quarters of a day, and doesn't seem to set me all the way back to the start, implying it's not a huge issue for me), does feel unpleasant and probably detrimental to my recovery, which I don't want. Wet Dreams don't seem to influence this, which is interesting... Hope you are continuing to do well and can't wait to hear back from you!