Re: Struggling for time Day 31 Yesterday was fine, slow day at work. Thereafter went for a drink with a friend and thereafter went out with my gf. We both got really drunk and it turned out to be a crazy night in the end, she basically had some sort of mental breakdown. Nothing happened apart from that, because after her mental breakdown the mood wasn't really set for sex. Today I feel shit actually, weird nights like yesterday just make our connection stronger. I really tried to suppress my feelings for her, since I knew it would end anyway. But over the last couple of days it has been harder and harder not to face those feelings. I'm at work and feel shit. I'm sure that in a week time, when she leaves, I'll be down in the dumps. I'm really afraid I'll fall back to MO then, to create some sort of dopamine spike.