Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by brain123, Nov 18, 2018.
day 3 pretty easy so far. going out tonight.
day 3, finished. went out - was not great club night for a thursday - still kept my social momentum. exited to go into the weekend. on day 4 and 5. im really proud of how easy i get to this days and also how energised i start to feel at day 3 -and that im able to have sex and be exited about it.
day 4, the sexual drive is saying hello again. sex dreams, sexual thoughts . but yeah feels great. fapping is not an option, instead im in the habbit of enjoying the drive. interrupting my pattern. and going out tonight and tomorrow.
also made a decision to travel alone to push outside my comfortzone. this is what nofap does to me. all of the sudden im doing the things that im scared of and that i should have done way before.
no thoughts, cut them, no touching , focus on energy, and on socialising.
have to stop working out directly before going out. it makes me really tired. and this leads to me not meeting enough woman , and might lead to me go into fapping momentum back again.
will adjust this and take this lesson.
day 5 today, took a girl home yesterday. but didnt come. im gettin used to the whole dating process again slowly but surely.
lets continue. no touching, interrupt thoughts, focus on energy
day 6, sleep drived from the girl who was at my place, i went out and had still lots of energy and motivation left. till it run out.
but still amazing the energy i have
its day 6 so lets go. i normally want to fap once a week on sunday, but i dont feel like it at all. i want to experience the energy i have instead. go to the gym, be active. live life.
still having sex dreams a lot currently.
no touching, no thoughts, interrupt. lets gooo focus on energy!
will make a trip that makes me uncomfortable the idea of , but thats exactly the reason why i will do it. growth versus comfort!
day 6, continue. feeling the energy. i see it now. its not like that nofap is that godlike mode. its just that fapping and orgasms have a pretty negative effect. im gettin used to it. i fapped like 1 day in the last 20 days. without missing anything.
day 6 is coming to an end. lets continue this journey. love the energy.
day 7, easy!
day 7 feeling super charged. my habbit of not fapping is pretty decent and thats not even coming up in my mind . it would take a few layers for me to get into this thought.
but still my energy is a little uncontrolable right now.
will go out tomorrow and meet a girl probably the next days.
day 8, im really proud of myself. yesss. will go out tonight, workout, focus and probably meet a girl - lets see.
and the weekend comes where i will force myself out of my comfortzone to grow.
day 8, by far the toughest day today. im feeling so loaded with energy. its painful. i might meet a girl tomorrow, thats the only reason why im not releasing the pressure now.
my mistake was probably to not do it yesterday because i planned to do it every 7 days normally. but again, the hope of meeting a girl today made me wait.
whatever - lets focus, im stronger then this. i will not die by just having too much energy so lets go!! will go for a short walk now.
had to just move, go to the gym and not stay with my thoughts and energy in one place. that made me almost crazy.
not im fine again. lets continue. will go to at least day 13 now. because i want to go out everyday for the next 4 days.
day 9, tried to have sex, with a girl i really like. it didnt work AT ALL.
i didnt watch porn for 30 days now.
sex worked 9 days ago, but because i could watch myself in the mirror.
this is insane.
also im super sensible against smells. i dont like to eat pussy because they smell or i get a little bit more turned off by girls when they start to smell differently when they got horny.
my perception of sex is just insanely not based on reality. but at least thats what i learned today.
at least i met a girl that i liked and likes me. and it wasnt super awkward that it didnt work. even though i felt bad after it.
but reflected on it, and will take my lessons and im happy i didnt fap yesterday and got confronted with reality instead today.
day 10, im having a flatline, didnt have a boner for the last 35 hours. so weird.
learned about flatlines, now i see it. i see the whole picture for the first time in my life.
im still porn addicted, im still heavilly conditioned by porn. and i have to go through the process to recover fully and i have to NEVER to back to porn again. EVER!!!!
i will go through a full recovery. and now i know i can make it. im as confident as never before in my life, my drive to do it is as high as never before. and now i also have the awareness and motivation. im proud! lets go !! day 10 is coming to an end!
day 10 almost over. will go to sleep early today, still no signs of libido. really interesting for me to observe.
lets continue this!
day 11. feeling little Bit more energy.
day 90 will be in 79 days. thats the 12th. august. lets goooo.
day 11, really easy so far.
day 12, easy. litte more energy then yesterday.
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