I will not even try to be on nofap while corona times. day 1. will still keep this journal for habbit reasons.
fapping became pretty much a strong habbit of mine in the last 1,5 months cause of corona. i need to start with the basics again which is - interrupt thoughts, no touching . day 1 today - lets go. im gettin used to the corona lifestyle now and i think if i focus on interrupting thoughts and not touching - it will make the whole thing way easier. i dont have any problems though - not any decline in motivation or drive. i just want to have it a little bit more under control - and not do it everyday to get the extra edge - but i will have no expectation or pressure. will just see what happens if i interrupt my thoughts, start this journal again and stop touching.
Life literally comes in waves. And thats a really important thing for me that i realised and thats why i also dont need nofap challenges anymore so much. i dont have any urges to fap or watch porn for weeks. which is really cool - but i will not fight it, the same way i will not fight it when i go through weeks of stronger urges. i have a really good overall balance - and thats what its all about. nothing is ever as good and as bad as we think- its way more likely that its just a wave and we are overintepreting it and therefore trying to control it more then we can and should.
