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  1. brain123

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    now i feel really drained from a really extremly active day yesterday and my brain craves for at least some kind of happiness, will check if i can meet a girl for sex today to avoid not fapping.
     
  2. brain123

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    made it through a really rough day, learned lots about me that day.
    but ultimately i learn that having control about ur sexual drive is something that is pretty natural if you remove all the unnatural stuff.
    we are designed to just have sex when a woman is with us, not alone with ourself.

    masturbation and porn is something insanely unnatural and a sign of something is not going right in ur life.

    its day 9
     
  3. brain123

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    pretty easy today. but still drained from workout 2 days ago. probably need one day more for full recovery.
     
  4. brain123

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    had sex yesterday, again no problem , was really good. i think i got my system and im settled.

    i dont watch porn
    i dont fap a lot
    i have no problems having sex.
    im feeling satiesfied and happy.

    this was pretty different when i started this blog over 1 year ago.
     
  5. brain123

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    its so funny . i think the biggest problem is that we are not putting happiness as a goal in our life and instead we are trying to achieve other stuff first to achieve happiness.
    by just puttin happiness as a primary goal i shortcutted so many other challenges and also reduced stressed. and therefore i also achieved the things like nofap and so on in a way better way.

    if we dont place happiness first we are lost in a paradigm of stress, societies expectations, our own expectation and i think the main reason is that we are not trained and we think its a little bit stupid and not practical to put happiness as our main goal.

    while in reality it is the only goal that makes sense. and everything else follows.

    i realised for example that having sex (esspecially heavy, exhausting sex with a lot of body effort) in the evening is not good for my sleep, and it effects my happiness. so i will just not do it anymore.
    but all these things i would never be able to realise if i dont ask myself the right questions with the right goal in mind. and i would just end up being confused why i dont get the feeling that i wanted in the first place- which is being happy.

    lets continue this journey.
     
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  6. brain123

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    this could be one of the last stops of this journey.
    day 1 - i will continue this blog the next 3 months even though i achieved many of m y goals and i found the right balance. but i think the real lessons and rewards will come in the next 3 months. lets go.
     
  7. brain123

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    day 2 - easy going. and i have a way easier time talking to girls and people im interested to because i differentitated so many of my feelings, motivations and outlooks on social settings and life. just amazing.
     
  8. brain123

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    had a girl at my place yesterday.

    day 2. im gettin more and more to the root of things but its a real challenge that cant be solved at once - it needs time.
     
  9. brain123

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    did some nutrition timing mistakes - slept bad because of that - fapped because of that. lesson learned.

    day 1
     
  10. brain123

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    slept really bad yesterday, think i also ate something that i didnt get really well - having massive urges today and also feeling pretty depressed and low energy.
     
  11. brain123

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    got sick , thats why i felt that bad and urges got back. will probably take 2 days to be back.
     
  12. brain123

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    Life is not just about how you react when things are going bad, good, really good or average. its also about how you react when things are going insanely bad. like for example being sick. because this influences your general life also - and we have such a limited time in these times but they can such a huge butterfly effect that knowing how you react to these situations is really important. most important its about just having the awareness.

    i fapped 6 times while i was sick but it doesnt mean anything because its a 1 % situation where i feel really down - so judging that or doing anything with that data except of just observing and being aware of it makes no sense. its basicly like "it doesnt count". but its still part of you and part of your life.
     
  13. brain123

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    still sick, watched p and fapped will restart in 2 or 3 days.
     
  14. brain123

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    still sick gettin better a bit everything is on pause.
     
  15. brain123

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    im on my way to get better.
     
  16. brain123

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    after 1 week of consistent fapping and pmo. lets go back im fine again. day 1
     
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    day 3, this journal is coming to an end. i just have my system figured out . will do it now for the last 3 months till end of june and then my journey here is finished. im super proud and understand the world and myself way better now
     
  19. brain123

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    after many days of not feeling great and fapping and watching porn - im back again. took my lessons out of this phase and ready to go back on track.

    its day 2
     
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