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  1. brain123

    brain123 Member

    Felt bad, my diet was bad, i got stomach problems. also the frustration about the girl got high again and i generally have a high drive. fapped 4 times since yesterday - but no porn.
    gettin my life in structure again - lets go , let get back. meditating 20 minutes per day again.
     
  2. brain123

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    The most important is to accept and relax and accept my non perfection and still focus on the positive.
     
  3. brain123

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    day 2, feeling it coming back again. stomach makes still problems, but no urges. will interrupt my thoughts, dont touch. focus on energy.

    will deattach myself from the girl also - and approach again - get back into the game.
     
  4. brain123

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    day 2 over. im gettin back a bit. i feel the strong desire to get my drive back. its insane what happened to me in the last days.
    im back in my worst states and motivation downs.
     
  5. brain123

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    day 3, went out to the club yesterday, started approaching again - interested in new woman. gettin deattached really fast with the other girl.
    not gettin triggered to fap and im starting to feel good again about my stomach.

    lets continue.

    interrupt thoughts
    no touching
    focus on energy.
     
  6. brain123

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    day 3 almost over. ate fastfood, sadness because of the girl came out - i feel pretty bad lol.
     
  7. brain123

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    day 4, was close to fapping in the morning. stopped myself then, my pride was bigger then my urge. will probably go out tonight and meet also the girl that im dating.
     
  8. brain123

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    Its 100 days now. i watched porn just once, didnt fap like 90 of 100 days.
    had sex. learned to like oral sex, was able to have sex succesfully, i lost lots of the pressure.
    i got feelings for a girl and learning the struggle of the emotional struggle of beeing attached with someone.

    also i got my drive to meet woman back. i know my sexual triggers better. i know myself sexually better.
    i got more in shape.
    my dick sensity is higher. im way more likely to go to day 3-4 and more even if i fap.

    im more confident to have sex. i improved a lot.

    and i will continue. porn is still almost no part of my life - which is completly awesome.
    im basicly free . i know myself so much better now.

    lets continue this journey of exploration and a new world.
     
  9. brain123

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    lets go again day 1 today. want to go to day 7 and then have sex. im still porn free - no urges to watch it.
    no touching
    interrupt thoughts
    focus on my energy and my girlfriend, approaching, meeting new woman and having energy in my life.

    if i fap i see how my dopamne levels get to big lows during my day to day life in the next days and i need way more stimulation.
    this makes me feel bad during the day more often, i might have more extreme hights, like orgasm, but also my cravings for other stimulation . i basicly lose control over my life and my dopamine levels are not placed in my favour - i have to use my willpower then to rebalance my unhealthy chemicals in my body.
     
  10. brain123

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    lets go, lets rock it. im almost over with day 1. my goal is to have great sex on sunday or saturday. so basicly on day 6 or 7.
     
  11. brain123

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    ate 100g of sweets in the evening, had the insuline down after, was bored at night - and ended up watching porn.
    but it was pretty weird and boring. will not do it again.
     
  12. brain123

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    Acceptance and Meditation are probably the biggest things that i can do to achieve my life goals. Im gettin into downspirals really fast, and the worst thing i could do is to make things worse in my brain then they are - which i do - because i get stressed easily. meditation holds me grounded - and lets me accept the situation and also lets me see that im just human - but also the fact that im improving all the time.

    today is day 1 - the experience with watching porn yesterday was really really interesting. it was so obvious for me how much porn sucks - i dont even watch it anymore cause it feels so weird compared to sex. sex is so much better.
    but this was the first time that i really experienced how empty calorie like porn is compared to sex. so i made a great breakthrough.

    lets go to nofap - will go to the gym - to release my energy - also back to structure - and meditation. i love life - lets go!
     
  13. brain123

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    Day 2, pretty easy. Im improving everything again, improved my workout shedule, my distractions. everything got to the next level of awareness in the last 2 days.
     
  14. brain123

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    day 2 over. got little trigger in the evening, but was easy to overcome. my life is gettin more in balance again.
     
  15. brain123

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    day 3, energy coming back. strong enough to overcome urges, i dont even bring myself so much in situations where i have to fight.
    will have sex at day 5-7.
     
  16. brain123

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    Its pretty funny that im happy about my porn relapse, because it showed me how much i dont value it anymore. even if i have the urge sometimes or think "would be fun for entertainment" my brain instantly remembers the moment when i watched it and it was like "wow this is so boring compared to real sex". and then the urge is gone.
    so the porn was basicly a proof that i really rebooted in a great way. im not into that shit anymore. which is amazing!

    lets continue day 3.
     
  17. brain123

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    day 3 over. was in the club , had energy. approached many girls, no urges today. will be pretty easy to go to day 4 - but will still be careful.
     
  18. brain123

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    Day 4, easy going. woke up pretty late today, but i was going out yesterday and i realised one way i need to change my approach towards woman in a sexual context.
    that might be a game changer. cant wait to execute on it and test it. i probably need like 30 days to implement this kind of new mindset and make it stick.
    and not fapping and keeping my sexual drive is a big part of it.
     
  19. brain123

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    day 5, pretty easy again. im gettin used to it.
     
  20. brain123

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    After 97 days of the initial challenge i broke up with the girl. i met her on day 4- so it went well for 93 days.
    i liked her a lot but she got weird - so thats it. but still - she made me stay motivated for 69 days to go on my hardmode reboot.
    she made me feel feelings again.
    she made me motivated.
    we had sex.
    i learned a lot of about myself.
    i retrained myself in a lot of ways.
    i learned to appreciate the value of having feelings again.
    i got more in touch with reality.
    i saw that i can do it and get results again.
    going on nofap for 7 or more days is completly easy for me now - because it did it under these insane conditions for 69 days.
    i changed my perception about myself.
    i learned to still recognize bad behaviour in girls that makes no sense and see red flags.

    im going out of it with happy feelings and even though it didnt end really well and didnt last really good - im happy about the whole experience.

    lets continue this jounrey. today was day 6.
     

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