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  1. brain123

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    fapped 2 times. i can go from not having it hard to coming in less then 45 seconds probably. if i compare it how long i need when i have sex its insane. it shows my conditioning.

    my urges are super high, my willpower gets weak really fast. i really need to get my head straight again. at least i didnt watch porn
     
  2. brain123

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    its funny, i came 3 times, in a short period amount of time , in less then 45 seconds. this shows that i can come many many times, and its just a matter of my head that i take forever during sex.
    also im conditioning my behaviour towards either - short errections , because i masturbate that fast or watching porn(which i did just once in the last 3 months) .

    interesting lessons. my drive to meet the girl that i was dating is at zero. and it is just the fapping probably.
    will NOT fap for the next 8 days - have logistics in place and rock it again. now or never!!!

    my goal is to bang the shit out of my girl, have a girlfriend and enjoy sex.
     
  3. brain123

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    the key for me now is to setup a life that doesnt trigger me to often and also learn to enjoy sex even if i fap sometimes here and there.
    not watching porn is still a major priority for me and its interesting to observe that my only strong urges to watch porn in the last 3 months came after i got angry in a discussion with my family. so this is the trigger that i have to avoid in the future.

    i think its realistic for me to setup my new life in the next 3-6 months to completly remove every potential trigger. but the most important part is that i still go for nofap - learn to have sex and enjoy it - and continue this journal.

    its day 88 today. will not fap in the next 8 days. and it should be pretty easy this time because im avoiding every trigger and have setup my life for it that way.
     
  4. brain123

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    not even close to a urge the whole day so far, i think i really know where all this comes from and its about controlling it. lets see.
     
  5. brain123

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    home now, some urges instantly coming up. but will stay strong, will be easier the next days.
     
  6. brain123

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    fapped again 3 times, i feel completly energy drained.
     
  7. brain123

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    No urges so far. Its again - the only time they come really is when im at home. I need probably 2-3 days to come back with my basic energy again. Again, i made some changes to make sure im not gettin triggered at home. And i am confident that it will work this time.
     
  8. brain123

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    zero urges, its like my brain is in the same mode like when i was at nofap - during the day, just at night it starts to trigger me - and if i remove that trigger - everything else will be solved. lets see if this is true!
     
  9. brain123

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    no problems today. going into day 2 without fapping tomorrow. slowly starting to miss the girl again. also feeling no danger at all to fap today. my strategy really works.
     
  10. brain123

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    went through yesterday without any problems. which makes it really clear to me that the trigger was the problem. my urges during the day are also not existent basicly - so if i remove the trigger and avoid gettin triggered, everything else is easy!
     
  11. brain123

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    got insanely triggered watching some tv show. also ate some fastfood yesterday that makes me feel pretty bad today. lol fuck
     
  12. brain123

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    day is over - day 1. i think i learned a bit about my sexuality and will try to use this new knowledge with the girl tomorrow.
     
  13. brain123

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    day 2. got through the day pretty easy. still not even the smallest urge to watch porn.
     
  14. brain123

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    day 2 over. lets continue.
     
  15. brain123

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    day 3, my feelings for the girl are back, no real urges, no urges to watch porn at all.
    im feeling it !!
     
  16. brain123

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    im in love with the girl but im in an insane emotional rollercoaster that is showing now. didnt see her, therefore i fapped 3 times yesterday because i got so insanely emotional and had to find a way to let go out of all the frustration.
    thought event about watching porn, but didnt do it,
     
  17. brain123

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    day 2 - still no need for porn, just if im in an insane frustration spiral - but even then i can control my need to watch like i did on friday.
    learned the lesson wiht the girl, im happy im in this stage of my development level and im seeing just the benefit of what i can learn - and that i can get used to the negative emotions.

    im confident that this time i can go on my nofap journey again. and also im way more comfortable having sex with her and just knowing when i want to and when i just dont want to.
    its still over 100 days now, and i just watched porn once. i have a relationship, im ready to overcome the negative emotions, i already had sex, i also accept more of what triggers me sexually and what doesnt. and im not stressing myself about being able to have sex so much anymore and isntead look at when i want it.
     
  18. brain123

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    day 3, no need for porn, added another important factor to my morning routine, which will make me up earlier and with a better focus. instantly worked today.
    removed some triggers. it really works.
    got ego issues handled with my girlfriend .
     
  19. brain123

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    got little triggered to watch porn, will not do it and instead interrupt my pattern.
     
  20. brain123

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    felt bad, watch some pictures on instagram and fapped. at least no porn.
     

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