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  1. brain123

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    day 21, urges pretty much gone. but really high sensitivity in my dick. my thoughts go to girls experiences i had in the last days and weeks.
    have to be careful to not get injured from all the exercise im doing . but im balancing it out pretty ok.
    also driven to get my life back under control after all this going out to clubs in the last weeks. i feel confident enough to be able to balance myself out way better now.
    meeting a girl on friday, but will not have sex - but just enjoy the time with her to recondition myself to enjoy girls in an intimitate way. also not saying no to relationsships anymore - im open for everything now. before i always looked for perfection - because my drive was low because of nofap.

    im pretty sleep deprived today, have to get 3 hours more sleep in the middle of the day to not take any risks of urges or low willpower. that happened to me often in the last relapses that i had. pretty awesome how i take all this lessons now from all the years of trial and error and now i have my final working system!

    lets go!

    no touching
    no thoughts - interrupt them!
    focus on energy.
     
  2. brain123

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    day 21, got my missing sleep. will focus on working out, eating properly and working today. and also going for walks. its important to let get lost in social time too much.
    everything in life can get into extremes and then go from something good to something too much and bad.
     
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    day 21, was a pretty active day. didnt workout, took a break. have to still be careful when going to bed now. i feel like im weaker then in the last days.
    oh btw, i broke my longtime record of 21days with nofap. really proud moment. but this is just the start!!
     
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    day 22, im ready and open for relationsships now. now that i dont meet my needs for love with porn, masturbation or anything else, i got rid of the perfection need in girls. i can accept their inperfections and focus on what we both want and create a great win win.

    this journey is gettin better and better. im amazed by the things that i discover everyday about myself and the world. the reboot process is not just helping me reboot , the longer it goes - the more i learn about myself and i adjust accordidently.
     
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    day 22, my body is still a little tired from all the working out and everything. didnt workout today, feeling some urges.
    but lets go to tomorrow. day 23. but will be still careful today.
     
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    day 23, some old thoughts about porn come back or addictive masturbation thoughts. interrupt - also my sensibility of my dick is really high - so i have to also be careful about the position i sleep with.
    also have to start working out today to release my energy.
    lets goooooooooooooo

    interrupt thoughts, cut , dont touch. focus on energy.
     
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    day 23 almost over. went pretty easy through the day, was pretty engaged. started working out again. diet could be better, water intake could be better. lets continue.
     
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    and the best part is i have zero urges and thoughts about porn. im completly bored about the topic.
     
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    day 24, im gettin control over my old behaviours. the best way is to set the circumstences the way that its really easy to achieve the goal.
    avoid situations with girls that make you wanna fap, either you have sex or not. avoid anything else.

    my errection feels really different now. i feel like its way more stable, way more "made for actual sex" and not just for quick masturbation and coming.
    so even this starts to change. but i know and i can feel that this is still just the tip of the mountain. there is so much more to learn and discover. if i imagine that this learning and discovering will go for another 66 days , i am really really exited. what a paradigm shift.
     
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    day 25, got problems with my legs from all the running that i need to stay sane. need to take a 4-5 days break from running to recover my legs and give it some time.
    this means i will go even harder in the gym.
    meeting a girl tonight, will be hopefully not awkward if she wants to have sex and i cant do it because i want to do the full reboot.
    my errection feel pretty insane right now, my dick sensitivity also pretty sick. i can imagine that i would feel pretty sick even with having sex with a condome.
    but this is just the start. im sure that this gets better and better. so i cant have sex at 25 and possibly destroy my progress. i want to go to day 90.

    lets go! also gettin more and more compliments that i look more jacked because of all my working out in the gym. this is amazing!!
     
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    day 25, met girl. was pretty clear that i will not have sex with her. learned some points about when im gettin aroused and when not and what kind of big part relaxation and negative thoughts play in this.
    will approach tomorrow some girls.
     
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    day 26, i have to conciously let go of old ghosts. old girls that im thinking about still or if im seeing them im still attracted to them. because they are still part of my fantasising and fixation. and i also picked my porn and masturbation fantasies for them.

    you never can let go of ur type, but if its that extreme that it holds you back that you are needing them to fantasise, or have girls that look similar to them in eyes, haircolour, face structure - then its a extreme that is not practical in reality again.

    im learning that. and im learning to let go.it will not be easy.

    masturbation and porn gave me an easy way to stay obsessed with these girls, but now reality is there and tells me to let go.

    this journey, is just gettin started.
     
  13. brain123

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    day 26 over. lets go guys. this journey is worth every day and investment.
    never been more proud and thankful for a challenge in my life.
     
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    day 27, i think this is the stage where it starts to see the real first benefits.
    i have such an strong desire and need to interupt my fixation its insane. never been so determined to fix it.
    never been so clear also on what to fix.

    also i decided that im ready to risk every relationsship with every girl that i will meet in the next 63 days. just to reach my goal.
    this is way more important then every great girl i could meet in the next 63 days. if she wants to wait, great. if not - great also.
    my rewards will be way bigger in the long term if i stick to my goals.

    theres nothing more important then how i feel about myself and how i perceive the world. also want to make huge progress in the gym.
    my willpower is also so much stronger now.

    this is insane!!
     
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    day 27. end. i have to learn to relax and be confident in Sexual Situations. its insane how fast i assume that i will not be turned in when im with a girl. this puts absurd pressure on myself. learn instead to be confident and discover and stay relaxed no matter what happens. this is the key. i have time !!
     
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    day 28. my decision itself to get my fixation under controll helps me to make better decisions and have more clarity.

    will also visualise myself beeing super relaxed and confident in Sexual situations because my State tends to be not relaxed at all currently.

    its so funny when i went to day 7 back then and i thought i made Big Progress and then i decided to have sex or fap. while now im on day 28 and i see the Progress and that theres still a huge long way to go. and mainly its not just about the days. its about the adjusting Tons of stuff along the way.
     
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    day 28, recognized another daily behaviour i have with myself. and told my friends to make me stop it and make me aware of it in social situations. if i stop this one, it will make a TREMENDOUS difference.
    not fapping is pretty automated now, going to workouts also, using my extra energy to workout, be social, be productive also.

    still , i will stay super aware of the danger around the corner of urges. im also developing the relationsship with the girl that im dating. intensifying it more, she got really important in this whole thing here and im happy she got into it.
    also got my sleep pattern more under control. im really starting to rock life!! but its still a hard and long way to go. and i will always stay aware of it

    lets rock it!!
     
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    day 29, starting strong. went to gym. good diet start. drank solid amounts of water. interrupted many patterns.
    many girls get really attracted to me . im all of the sudden socialising with girls. im just appreciating there feminine energy without judging personality flaws.
     
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    day 29, pretty active day. still strong willpower. made some progress. sensitivity of my dick is insanely high. cuttin all the behaviours that trigger my old fixation was done today.
    having another date tomorrow with the girl. on day 30.

    had lots of workouts and practising soccer today.
    lets continue!!
     
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    day 30, decided to make another major change in my life. its time to let go of some things and make my life easier then ever.
    almost came in my dreams from having some sex dreams, my dick sensitivity is insanely high, i can also recognize how my patterns of sexual fixation slowly start to change.
    its funny how back then i always thought im recovered after 7 days because i got tired of not having an orgasm. and now i realise that even day 30 is just the beginning of a huge journey and that its the decisions and lessons along the way that are making the biggest difference.

    1/3 of the way is done! amazing!!
     

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