Feeling low still, and kind of lonely. It's summer vacation at university but I'm still in town - I don't think I said a word to any person yesterday. The flip side is that my university work is going great, which is useful because I have a deadline coming up and I was really far behind at one stage. Trying to be positive about things. My internet filter has definitely stopped me PMO'ing a couple of times already, so that's nice. I just want to be buzzing around like I was a couple of months ago. It'll come back again. I pin a lot of hope on girls, and I'm not sure how to feel about this. Like, I don't need to be with anyone, or be validated in any way. But just to carry an image of a girl in your heart all day (metaphorically) is a beautiful thing. It puts a spring in my step, and it motivates me no end. At the minute there is nothing going on, and I still like F. I tried Tinder and I don't know what has happened but it is shit lately. Maybe people don't use it over summer, but my profile is exactly the same and I've barely spoken to anyone. I just want to meet a girl who excites me, either online or in real life. Bit of a mopey post.