Six years clean from PMO, but the struggle goes ever on.

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by SRL, Jan 3, 2017.

  1. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Well said, brother. Peace and love back at you.

    SRL
     
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  2. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Hello, PMO forums. I'm back. I'm doing fine. no relapses or anything awful...I could just use some support as I try and get my online time down and work on my meditation. nothing huge. I'm just trying to keep improving in all aspects of my life. I'll be back in here from time to time to post on my progress and offer whatever encouragement I can to the rest of you. Strength, respect and love to all of you.
     
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  3. Fish Hawk

    Fish Hawk Well-Known Member

    You bring up an important point! You must stay vigilant no matter far down the road you are ! Welcome back !
     
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  4. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Morning! Dropping in to set my intention for the day. I meditated for 2 minutes, got some writing done, and generally got my day going well. I've also instituted some powerful internet blockers to help enhance my productivity.

    I can't believe I let this happen. oh well.

    SRL
     
  5. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    well said, bobo!!!!! thanks for the kind words. i've still got some work to do, clearly. :)
     
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  6. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    decent day today. got a lot done. meditated. wrote. (got some good writing done, too.) wrote some involved correspondence, which is something I'd been missing out on. got up to speed on some new stuff at work. Stayed focused, stayed cool. Cleaned up my hard drive some.

    Gotta keep clean and get my brain back. I want it back.

    SRL, always.
     
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  7. breath

    breath Member

    I going to stop porn wanking cold turkey right now. deleting accounts on porn sites. Going to get my Masters degree this year.. This seemws like a good thread here. Good men with good intentions in life. It's gonna be free from shame regret self hating... just me setting great sites and going for it!! Best to all...
     
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  8. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Brother, congrats on starting your reboot, and let me be the first to say — the first 30 days are tough! Make sure you fill your time, build some rituals to replace your old compulsions, and remember: you got this, even if you fuck up!!! Strength, respect, and love, brother. Hit me up any time! :) <3
     
  9. breath

    breath Member

    Thanks I appreciate thesupport.

    I'm gonna focus on the positive aspect of doing good things. Not focus whatever time I have frittered away. I have wasted time indeed. But there is nothing gained by dwelling on that now..
     
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  10. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Logging on in the morning, I'm getting used again to blocking the entire internet so I can focus on my work. I've had a good week or so back at the grind: meditation, some good writing, better focus. I'm relieved at how fast my brain's bounced back. I thought I'd lost my focus forever. But I haven't, by god, I haven't.

    next steps will include better meditation. I've only ever gotten to a point of "good" meditation after weeks of effort, really making it a habit. I'm way far away from that still. my meditation's still pretty splintered, junky, not great. broken up with curlicues of thought and arias of worry and stress.

    but i'm working on it. more to come.

    SRL, everyone. We got this, my brothers in arms.
     
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  11. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    There absolutely isn't. There's an old saying I like: "The best time to start a new habit is a year ago. The second best time is right now." You got this! <3
     
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  12. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Checking in today. Going to take a break from drinking for a bit. It's been a problem for me from time to time, and the hangovers are the tough.

    Meditation felt a little better this morning.

    Sending SRL to everyone. We got this!
     
  13. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    just dropping in to say hi to everyone. sensing another big round of life changes coming my way. I hope they're all good ones. but I may be in for a fight. We'll see.

    SRL
     
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  14. Gil79

    Gil79 Seize the day

    hmm, according to the internet this can mean 2 things: you're sending us either Seismological Research Letters or Speed Release Locks.....:D

    Not a native English speaker, so curious what it stands for...:)

    Anyway, just want to tell you that I like your positive outlook!
     
  15. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    "Strength, Respect, and Love." <3

    And thanks for the kind words!
     
  16. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    I think I felt some withdrawal symptoms from being online today. Felt some mild flulike symptoms. Weird. Meditated twice, had a good workout. Need to improve quality of meditation and maintain better focus throughout the day.

    SRL!
     
  17. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Checking in. It's been two weeks now, since I decided to really try and right my ship again. No P peeking, way less internet, meditating every day (usually 2x a day). It's wild how different your mind feels after only a few days of this kind of work. (Because it *is* work.)

    Hanging in there. SRL to all.:)
     
  18. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Has anyone on these forums given up booze as a part of all this? I think I may need to. Might as well start talking about it.

    SRL
     
  19. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Okay, definitely had a bit of a relapse yesterday. Not to PMO; just to peeking. I'm trying to get my peeking and Fs back down to zero, saving all that sexual energy for when I'm with a woman. I don't like wasting it on stupid pictures and videos. (The women in the pictures and videos aren't stupid, of course — but ogling them is.)

    Hanging in, trying my best.

    SRL
     
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  20. SRL

    SRL Active Member

    Hanging in there. I've had a really good last few days. SRL!
     

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