Self improvement and a life vision

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by Fry2, Dec 5, 2016.

  1. Intothewild89

    Intothewild89 Active Member

    Interesting on the hypoglycemia theory. I will attest that when I binge on porn, I don't get hungry at all. Seriously, I could begin a binge at 5pm, watch videos for hours into the night, and by 6 am the next morning I wont have eaten anything and I'm not hungry at all. Why is this? I think it's because my adrenaline and sympathetic response ramps up and I'm totally out of the rest and digest mode. I get adrenal fatigue real bad when I binge too much, and I think this is why. Interesting stuff.
     
  2. Hello Penis My Old Friend

    Hello Penis My Old Friend Well-Known Member

    Hey Fry. That's great news about the diagnosis. I mean, it's a shitty thing to have, but now you know you can start addressing teh problem and it may make a real difference in your life.
     
  3. staythecourse

    staythecourse Well-Known Member

    There is something nice about a normal life. A basic life. I've found it a bit in travel to poorer countries. Friends and family are always #1. There is no greater feeling than love. I don't know if anyone ever truly finds their purpose, or the perfect purpose..I mean being a father and husband is pretty huge. Your bills will get paid..it is nice to travel and have some toys but not totally essential. I think if you get a grip on sobriety most, if not all, of your dreams can come true.
     
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  4. staythecourse

    staythecourse Well-Known Member

    Im sorry..sometimes in life we must keep fighting. I think you can get sober and stay sober. I would see a doctor about non addictive sleep meds
     
  5. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Firts, I must say, in regards to the long text about the blood sugar that you pasted, that I 100% have noticid it to be true. A drop in blod sugar is dangerous territory for me. It is like I lose at least 50% of my selfcontrol. But damn it, it's so much to think about when rebooting that I foter forget this part as well.

    Don't give up on your hopes that starting with the hypothyroidism treatment will make you function better. It might take a little while before you notice improvemtns, just as with most things in life.

    Congrats on the good sleep tonight! :)
     
  6. Intothewild89

    Intothewild89 Active Member

    I'm so happy for you dude! After binging two nights ago, I had to spend all of yesterday awake with no sleep the night before. Being awake for 48 hours is one of the worst feelings I know. The fact that you had to stay awake until 5am the other morning without even succumbing to your addiction just doesn't seem fair. I hate insomnia, it doesn't get me very often but when it does my frustration goes through the roof.

    On the other hand, maybe you feel this way too like I do. I recall reading somewhere on the causes of ups and downs of dopamine. One of the things that will actually INCREASE dopamine is lack of sleep, like if you were to stay awake an entire night, you'll actually have more dopamine production on that given day. I've actually experienced this, as my anxiety will completely abate on days where I didnt sleep the night before. I even got a haircut one day after not sleeping and had great conversation with the stylist with no anxiety (I have panic disorder so getting a haircut is really difficult for me).

    I see today is your day 1 as well. The challenge is on my friend! Get a black bottom at the bakery for your hypoglycemia and have a wonderful time with your family. You deserve it.
     
  7. Intothewild89

    Intothewild89 Active Member

    You're going to have to fill your time with activities outside the house if you can help it. Whenever my wife works the night shifts is always when I relapse. Being alone is always one of the biggest drivers of my addiction. How many days will you be sequestered to yourself? You've experienced the benefit of staying clean, so try and use those past experiences to pull you through. I know each and every time I get done with a binge, i always always tell myself it wasn't as good as having a clear head with no anxiety. I also know about over exercising, it puts me right back into adrenal fatigue and makes my withdrawal worse. Take it easy over these coming days and you'll get by clean if you're diligent. Good luck man!
     
  8. Hello Penis My Old Friend

    Hello Penis My Old Friend Well-Known Member

    Your wife sounds really supportive :) That's great to see.
     
  9. Intothewild89

    Intothewild89 Active Member

    This completely. My wife has no suspicion whatsoever about my addiction. I feel like that would make things infinitely easier, but I know coming out to her about my problem would result in some intense fighting. You're lucky, Fry!

    I'm sorry you're still dealing with the insomnia. Have you tried deep breathing or progressive muscle relaxation? A lot of times when I can't fall asleep I'll do 4-2-6 breathing. 4 in, 2 hold and 6 seconds out. After 20 min. Of that ill typically fall asleep. I know it's hard to turn your brain off when it's most critical, have you tried valerian? That stuff puts me out like no other. Also, I mentioned in my recent posts that I'm taking CBD oil now. That might do wonders for your insomnia.

    I'm back to day 1 today as well. I found a loophole in the settings of my launcher app that has it's own web browser. The locks don't even touch it. I should've taken your advice. I need a new approach. I might be running from something as well, like you've said. Keep your head up and stay diligent. You'll find the answer if you're dedicated enough. The question remains, are you dedicated enough? Disciplined enough to stay away long enough to find what's missing/not working? Stay well friend :D
     
  10. cjm

    cjm Well-Known Member

    hey fry

    thats an interesting observation you made about yourself "running away from things"

    in your opinion, what do you think you are running away from?

    good point about total honesty :)

    C
     
  11. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Oftenen times, when I read your journal posts it is like I see myself writing. Think we must be pretty similar, except you have a wife and baby and I'm a single dude.
     
  12. trapped7

    trapped7 "what you resist persists"

    Interesting, the research about sugar spikes, adrenaline and the connection to addictive behaviour.
    How are you doing with all that at this time?
     
  13. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    How are you doing Fry? It's been a while since you made an update here
     
  14. Fry2

    Fry2 Well-Known Member

    Hey Marston, actually I wanted to start a new journal as I'm not so much into my old one anymore :)

    Not much to report though. Still going through 1-2 week cycles and trying to figure it out.
     
  15. MarstonS

    MarstonS Walking the longest walk...

    Oh, have I missed something here? Have you already started a new journal? If so, what's it called?
     

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