I'm single never married 45 year old man addicted to porn of one form or another since I was 10. How to reverse 35 years? Scared what lies in the other side. Tried 12 step groups and therapy for many years with limited success. I have dreams I want to fufill before I die and I feel that this addiction ha a ruined them this long and I don't want to let it sniff it out entirely. I want a wife and maybe one child, I want to live in peace without being ruled by fear and anxiety and I want to help the world be a better place instead of hiding from it while staring at tits all day. It's a horrible feeling and I want to break free. I'm hoping this forum can help me.