Hey folks, and there it is... another journal. I'm 35 years old now and I attepted to quit porn/masturbation before. Until now my PM habit was an issue to me but it never seemed to be a big problem and I wasn't pressed that much to change anything. I never saw it coming but during the last year things pretty much escalated, ending with me searching out femdom scat and stuff like that. Plus I could really "hyperstimulate" me by playing with my nipples. No matter how tired I was or how many times I already had ejaculated... this plus some porn always got me hard again. I'm totally ok with any sexual quirks and when I had my orgasms with extreme stuff it was and is still ok, never felt disgusted or anything. But the thing is, all of this is killing my love-life. My motivation to seek out woman was already pretty low the last 4 years but now it has hit rock bottom. I literally have zero interest in real sex right now. And I really miss the real action. Luckily there are ways to change that and I want to write down my journey and share it with the people of this forum. Good news is, I'm already 10 days into the process now. I haven't touched my dick since then, but I looked up some porn and got into some nipple-stimulation until three days ago. The first week I got pretty horny sometimes but since sunday I'm totally flatlining. No libido and porn or fantasy doesn't get me aroused. Even twisting my (oh god I hate this english word) nipples doesn't do anything for me. And guys...it feels very very liberating, kinda like "ok, less to worry about". Plus this is a very good chance to break my just take a "little look at porn" and self-stimulating habit. At the moment I feel like there is no point in looking at other people copulating. I don't have a specific goal regarding days but I'm a bit into chi-gong and there is a saying that after 100 days of no orgasm your sexual energy is fully restored. So lets go with that - numberswise- for the moment. Nevertheless I want to hop back into an active sex life in spring 2019 and there is so much more I want to do the following 4 month. But that is a story for another journal entry.