Rewiring obstacles

Discussion in 'Pornography Addiction' started by sunbeam, Jan 19, 2023.

  1. sunbeam

    sunbeam Member

    Hi,

    i am rebuilding my life for a longer time now and still did not made it to rewire finally.
    The problem is not the addiction anymore for a long time now.
    The real problem is, that i was on the wrong way from my early childhood on.
    Born into a family with a strong piety usually only found at sect members.

    Now, the biggest problem are foreign smartphones. As soon as my reboot comes close to complacency, my smartphone vulnerability becomes bigger and bigger. Means as soon as i see a smartphone somewhere it seems to trigger addictive pathways and withdrawal symptoms follow (bad innergame, emotional numbness). However, they do not last too long, after one or two days the cycle starts again.
    A place without smartphones would probably solve this but smartphones are nowadays everywhere. In every club, restaurant, bar, everbody looks on his smartphone every few minutes. Only my house is a smartphone free area.

    And i can't use any media. Reading emails, having a phone call, using whatsapp seems to trigger addictive pathways as well. Here it needs 6 days of withdrawal to recover.

    I get to know new woman every few days now. They seem interested but miss a healthy amount of complacency and hope that this will improve in the future.
    The problem is finding a woman suitable for rewiring. Every woman is sorting out men with emotional health problems quickly. They wait for Mister Right.
    I have read here sometimes to search for a woman with emotional health issues, too.

    It seems that my recovery derailed somewhere in the past. But how to go back on track now? Are here others having this smartphone problems, too?

    I feel like Terence Hill in the movie Super Fuzz. There he has super powers as long as he does not see the color red.
     

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