Another very insighful post from you, Newman. Theres so much that I can relate in it. You got the point whats really behind that sexualized need to seek escape. I feel those same things too - separation and loneliness are behind it - the need to connect and to be loved. It could stem from early childhood, somehow feeling not to be loved and accepted enough. Maybe it was due to overtly sensitive nature. Causes could be many. This is exactly my view of the situation too. Theres a lack of self-love, which turns us towards this addiction. But I can tell you are a good person, with great wisdom in your writings. Theres a kindness in you too, which are quite rare thing in many men. You should feel good about yourself! Well said! Let us find that healthy view of ourselves by continuing this path whatever it takes. I liked you dream - I think it depicted your subconscious process how you have realized the illusion what the whole P world is. Its just ruthless money-making machine destroying human dignity, moral and souls, wanting to make men addicted to this twisted form of unreal sexuality.