Redemption from hell

Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by sesshomaruinuyasha, May 11, 2013.

  1. tankedi

    tankedi New Member

    Keep up the fight dude. I also was a pretty long lurker here on the forums and finally just decided to start posting here recently as well. Definitely a fight that is easier among others who are going through the same thing!
     
  2. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    OK so end of DAY 2 .
    The day started feeling bad as usual , dissapointed about what happened but now i'm feeling far better.
    Basically about 3weeks ago i got fired from the gym where i worked.
    Today i went to the best gym in my country, took the exam 90 questions out of 100 and got accepted. So as you see a bad moment can be a blessing in disguise.
     
  3. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    This made me very happy. Got a little bit drunk and i've flirted massively with a 26 year old girl from my old gym. The conversation even got to sex and i felt a little bit of response from my dick. Sad that i won't be able to deliver, i think me being 100 % will take me 4 or 5 mónths. Still had some fun and im definitely feeling that im going back to my old no pmo self
     
  4. Apeman

    Apeman It means you're a baboon... And I'm not

    Hell yes! Rewire to real women!
     
  5. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    Your better of failing with girls then not trying when you get the chance. Even though its embarrassing, Hiding yourself away does not help you become aroused with girls.
     
  6. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    No man , sorry but after 1 and a half here in this shit i think that i have it pretty figured out.
    Not trying to be cocky or anything.
    I can definitely say that this rewiring thing has its benefits , even the sensual touching that fugu is trying ( i did something similar pretty much an year ago but definitely dont want it now. even if it takes me a fuckin year I DO NOT want to have anything to do with my hands ever in a sexual way)
     
  7. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    When i was in december , having doubts about all this , i pm'ed gabe , the guy in gary's interviews and he definitely convinced me that Rebooting is the basis , not rewiring.
    After all these months i definitely agree with him. I already know what needs to be done : Abstinence for about 200 days or so , or at least untill i get full locked morning erections WHITOUT thinking which i experienced once before.
     
  8. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    Gabe rewired during his reboot after a short period of abstinence.
     
  9. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    I flirted with the girl to have fun and basically remind myself about the prizes at the end of the road.
    I do not even for one 10th of a second think about doing something sexual with a girl WHITHOUT being 100 % normal. The shame would be too much too bear. I've already turned down about 50 girls in this year and a half so sadly i'm experienced at this. (some of them were just girls trying to pick me on at the metro or smth , most of them nonverbally but still i turned them down by not answering )
     
  10. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    I'm not saying you have to be sexual just saying that you could spend more time with these girls if you get the opportunity. Not every girl you meet has to go past kissing, touching etc all the way to sex.
     
  11. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    I would definitely appreciate your input on how to do this because frankly i'm clueless.
    Ok , we meet somewhere or at my house., we go to kissing and touching for that day. Ok another day, the same , another day the same , till when ?
    Until the girls will literally tell me : when the hell do we fuck ? And also i am very emotional and afraid that i'
    m gonna fall in love like an idiot for nothing.
     
  12. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    If i would be ready in a month or so , then yes i could postpone the sex until then. But i know that i have many months before i will be ready.
    I would really really like to spend some time like that with the girls but for what ? Don't believe the hype , they want sex as much as you want and if you won' give it to them they will take it from other place.
     
  13. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    Also does anybody here has his dick shrink in the reboot ? Not flaccid , because flaccid it grew to twice its pmo size , but erect ? Did we artificially grew our cocks by jerking off everyday so many times ?
    Because i swear to god mine was bigger last year or so. Maybe those stupid jelq methods in which you pull your penis like an idiot really work and we've been doing it inadvertendly
     
  14. Forgotten

    Forgotten Member

    Hi man, I just found your journal.
    The first time I tried to have sex I had the same exact experience you wrote in you post: I masturbated a few hours before, because I wanted to last more; and then, when I had to fuck the girl...my penis wasn't working LOL
    Stay strong and good luck with your reboot! ;)
     
  15. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    Yeah , we were totally oblivious to what we were living.... thanks for the support
     
  16. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    Day 3 ended. Some moderate morning wood.
    It seems that i am returning to my previous size , lol , to think that i was scared that i got smaller.
    An ugly (but now that i checked her pics big boobed) ex coworker just sent me a friend request on facebook. i was ready to kick her but i decided to check her pics and even though she's chubby she's definitely big breasted. Guessed i was too porned out to notice this at work.
     
  17. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    Either way i got a good erection seeing her pics , but strange to say it wasn't in response to her pics , it was due to me thinking what i could do with her.
    Definitely added her.
     
  18. gameover

    gameover Age: 26

    That's good progress if you got hard from thoughts.
     
  19. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    Ok , got internet to solve some business with some papers.
    An urge came while i was watching that big boobed girl from yesterday. In fact it was a very strange thing , i was thinking if i should to talk to her , i wanted to see her pics to actually convince me to talk to her (God , she's ugly) , i told myself , i won't look at her big boobs photos because i just don't want it , when i have caught a glimpse of them , i had some porn thoughts , i beat them , but the fact that i even thought to give in to them pissed me off , and said ok , if you thought about it he already beat you , let's do this. Fuck it , did it about 5-6 times non stop , first time hard , then semi , then flaccid , either way it doesn't last more than a few seconds.
    Then i had thoughts , for what ? for what am i doing this thing ? i never lasted more than 1-2 minutes , even in pmo days , i'll never be able to have proper sex with a woman. I can just continue here.

    Very strange , i wasn't mad at all. But i felt the need to do something DRASTICALLY this time. Not just cut the internet off , nope , why , if i get it back i'll do the same thing.
    No , i need to choose the hardest route : A FULL ON ATTACK ! Stay with the internet , stay with browsers , FIGHT like a demon for the first hours/days/weeks then i will get back to my old no pmo level where nothing could even budge me. So , it starts from now on , full on offensive ! I also feel the need to say sorry to all of you !
    Don't worry my friends , i have a feeling that this will go alright after all.
     
  20. sesshomaruinuyasha

    sesshomaruinuyasha Destroy the drug and get your life back !

    Far too much bullshit . The strongest will survive and the weakest shall perish .
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0pFODc4stI&feature=player_embedded#!
     

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