recovering from severe PIED

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by Guts, May 28, 2018.

  1. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    Alright guys ive been on this forum for 5 years. I'm 26 and Ive had PIED for 6 years and I've been fighting it ever since. For the last 6 years I could only ever get to 30 days, and 40. Last year I met a girl and she helped me get to 50. We broke up and I got to 60 days.

    After 60 days I still had PIED and I hit rock bottom. I quit my job and focused completely on defeating this. I got to 84 days 14 days ago and I saw the most improvement ever. I got so close to getting rid of PIED. I did relapse but not to porn. It didn't send me all the way back as previous relapses would and I didn't binge but I still have this.

    It's now day 14 of no PMO and im so determined to defeat this.

    I'll give day to day updates.
  2. BuddhaPunkRobotMonk

    BuddhaPunkRobotMonk Administrator Staff Member

    Welcome to the forums Shiva! Congrats on the 84 days! Sound like you are well on your way to recovery. Wish you the best with your reboot and please keep us updated!
  3. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    Ah man thanks for replying Matt.

    I just relapsed a few hours ago. Feel like crap. Day 0 now. I realize i need to abstain until I never go into the flatline.

    Does anyone want to start a group chat via skype or google hangout? Preferably people who suffer from PIED and can speak english.
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  4. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    All my relapses happen when i cant sleep. Im gonna try and wake up everyday at 7.
  5. chrism

    chrism It's time to make a change.

    Hi Shiva,

    I am trying to u see why you quote your job to focus on recovery....

    For me the time I am at work is the main time when I will not relapse... because I’m at work.

    Do you not find that now you have more time on your hands... and therefore more potential time to have a relapse?

    84 days is really impress btw! Great effort!
  6. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    The stress of jobs always makes me relapse

    Im pretty occupied throughout my days. I walk 3 times a day. I also never relapse during the day, it's always when i get hit with insomnia.

    I woke up early today so im gonna keep doing that.

    Im at day 1

    Im gonna shoot for 6 months.
  7. chrism

    chrism It's time to make a change.

    Oh right fair.

    If you get hit with your cravings during the night, have you tried not having internet connected devices in your bedroom?

    I stopped taking my phone to my bed room and it really helped a lot.

    Wow 6 months yeah that would be pretty sweet to achieve!
  8. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    Well, I'm at 70 days no PMO complete hard mode. Feeling incredible. Ive had insane erections in the last week. Ive also been seeing a therapist every week. Only 110 days left!
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  9. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    74 days no PMO. Feels like im entering a mini flatline or partial flatline. The anger and irritability when im in a flatline is unreal, does anyone else get like that?
  10. chrism

    chrism It's time to make a change.

    Hey man, wow 74 days!

    That’s amazing dude.

    Yeah I get pretty irritable on some day after a relapse.

    Think it’s normal and just gotta remember that it will pass.
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  11. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    Im 103 days hardmode no PMO

    Currently in a flatline but im experiencing something ive never had in flatlines, i get no night or morning wood and during the day my penis is mostly dead but out of nowhere ill get random spontaneous erections.

    Ive never experienced this while in a flatline. Normally id only get spontaneous erections when im out of a flatline.

    Ive never gone this far no PMO. Im gonna keep going till i never have this.
  12. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    I haven't posted on here in a long time. Currently 175 days no PMO hard mode. On day 153 I was getting locked erections for the next two days. Im now currently in a flatline and very confused. Last year I had gone only 84 days of no PMO and I was seeing amazing results. I had been about 8 months of not looking at porn prior to that.

    I'm not seeing the results I did last year. So I'm starting to think the length of not looking at porn is just as important as abstaining.

    I'm going to keep going and see if I get out of this flatline. This is the longest flatline I've had in this streak so far.
    Last edited: May 7, 2019
  13. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    Day 179

    Getting out of the flatline. Was getting worried there. 3 weeks of flatline. Tomorrow is 6 months, can't believe it.
  14. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    187 days no Porn/ 7 days no orgasm

    Ok, it's starting to get interesting. On day 180 I M'd and orgasmed(I, it wasn't too bad, but what happened after shocked me, I didn't go back into a flatline....

    Every day since then my erections and libido are getting stronger. I've seen a lot of guys fall at this point and I don't want to become that. Ive been at this point before as well and fell so I think I know what to do now. A lot of guys get to this point, think they are cured and orgasm and have sex until they go right back into a flatline and are smacked all the way back to day 1.

    I'm a little scared of the next few days. I'm going to try my hardest not to have another orgasm for a few weeks. If I continue to not flatline, I might have another O, if in the next few days I go back into a flatline I'm just going to keep abstaining.

    This is the strangest streak I've ever been on.
  15. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    190 days no porn/ 10 days no orgasm

    Ok, things are still really weird. Yesterday I kind of felt flatliney, but I still woke up with some minor erections. This morning I woke up to a wet dream, but I felt awake when it happened, but I'm going to assume it was just a wet dream. So, I was in a flatline the entire day today, minutes ago I tried to test an erection, nothing happened, no touching, nothing, no erection. Complete, cold, small, shriveled, flatline dick. I got up, and out of frustration I touched myself and boom, 100% erection. WTF

    This has never happened to me in a flatline.
  16. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    191 days no porn/ 11 days no orgasm

    Wow, one day flatline, I'm out of it. I've never had that ever. Woke up with an erection that was so hard I had to flex all my muscles to get it to go down, and even then it was still fighting me!

    Hardmode is the way to go.
  17. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    197 days no porn/ 0 days no orgasm

    Fuck, feeling lost right now. I did eventually go into the flatline, and of course I forced erections and orgasms, twice. Wiener is in serious pain right now, put it through mortal kombat, straight masturbatality. And yet after all that I still managed to wake up with some what of an erection, hopefully I didn't do too much damage?

    For the next 3 to 4 months i'm gonna O only when I feel I can. If at 10 months or a year of no porn I'm still not seeing progress I have no other option other than just doing hard mode indefinitely until I never flatline again, even if it takes over a year.

    But this is what confuses me.

    Last year I went 7 months no porn(I miscalculated, I thought it was 8 months but 7 months was the longest I had ever gone without porn), I did have some orgasms spaced out every few months in that streak, I was not seeing any progress it felt. After that, I went hard mode for 3 months, saw the most progress ever. Even more progress than this 6 months hard mode streak I just did. Was I seeing so much progress because I had gone so long without porn? Or does my brain only decide when it wants to heal?

    Over the 7 years of me trying to get over this I would always binge to porn after relapsing to masturbating, I'd make it to 30 days, 40, and 60, then binge to porn after I broke the streak. Clearly I've been doing it all wrong.

    I'm never going to go back to porn now, so let's see what happens.
    Last edited: May 29, 2019
  18. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    198 days no porn/ 1 day no orgasm

    I can't believe it. Everytime I wake up I have an erection.

    This is giving me hope. This would never ever happen before my 6 month hard mode streak. If I had one orgasm in or out of a flatline it would take weeks to see any kind of erection.
  19. Guts

    Guts Active Member Staff Member

    217 days no porn/ 16 days no orgasm

    Things have been so up and down lately. But I've been zen. Not worrying about my PIED has helped a lot, and I'm getting great sleep. I did have an orgasm 16 days ago that did seem to drop my libido a bit, no real morning wood, but everyday I've been able to get an erection spontaneously or through touch. Past 6 days i've been flatliney but even days when I am flatlined I can still get an erection by touching myself.

    But thats my current problem now, It's like every other day I can't stop touching myself. I don't really go close to the edge, but I can't stop thinking its possibly stalling me. The other thing is my erection slowly dies if I stop touching it. But I'm not bummed because I used to never even be able to get an erection on my own.
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  20. -Luke-

    -Luke- Well-Known Member

    200+ days without porn. That's the most important thing and you've made a lot of progress along the way. The touching maybe won't help but as long as you're not watching porn, who cares.

    Well done on 200+ days!
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