I gave up porn but my problem now is that i keep MOing. I never considered MO a problem but a this point I have to admit it becomes one. Crazy fucking crazy. I usually start testing my erection quality and then I end up in MOing. At this point my next step is to go monk mode for 15 days and see what happen. This genuinely scare me because I want to be able to MO in an healthy way but it seems right now is not possible. I don't want it to become an addiction like porn
After 15 days I will resume vanilla fantasy. If a porn thoughts come to my mind I will just stop it right away. I can't fall for this shit, I have more important things in life that require my attention
Have you ever tried to stop this testing? Maybe, that`s the key to health? I slipped many times in similar circumstances
Phases of relapse: Scenario one: -mild hornyness during the day -anxiety about the future/anxiety about health-> fantasizing-> need to search for a very specific content-> thoughts of peeking-> binge Scenario two: Mindless browsing-> see a soft non P video-> escalation, curiosity, need of novelty and relapse
Hey man! I hope you are doing good in your journey. To be honest it is motivating to see all your messages, I admire how persistent you are. I am also in the process of recovery and have been now porn free for about a month and a half. However for me now, it is all about recovering sensibility down there. Therefore I am starting a 90 day challenge (no masturbation, obviously no porn). If you want we could post here, our progress in order to track it and motivate each other. For me today is day 1. I am happy to be here and I think we should both be strong in these difficult times.
