Hey guys, I mainly start this thread to find some motivation to stay abstinent for a while. At the moment I'm quite depressed again and I'm thinking this might actually help me. I rebooted 90days 3 and a half years ago. And after that I was the most happiest in my life. I found a gf, felt more confident and was more relaxed. When I was watching porn it was really some task reaching climax and even after sex with my ex I had the strong urge to watch porn because it didn't fulfill my need for stimulation. A big problem is that my addiction shifted now to real sex. Mostly not the healthy intimate one but like sex dates using dating apps concerning a specific fetish. I think this is also a way to deal with my bad mood, a tool to relieve the pain for a while. Also I started masturbating again. I think after the reboot it's kind of obligatory to fap once in a while since what's the point in having sex when you cum after 15 seconds? The less I have regular sex the more I get drawn to my fetish and things get worse. Deep down I just want a regular relationship but it's really tough when I'm feeling like shit therefore I gotta start for at least 30 days again. Have a nice day!