Rebooting again [Start: 11.03.2017]

Discussion in 'Ages 25-29' started by BackOnTrack, Mar 12, 2017.

  1. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    Hey guys,

    I mainly start this thread to find some motivation to stay abstinent for a while. At the moment I'm quite depressed again and I'm thinking this might actually help me. I rebooted 90days 3 and a half years ago. And after that I was the most happiest in my life. I found a gf, felt more confident and was more relaxed.
    When I was watching porn it was really some task reaching climax and even after sex with my ex I had the strong urge to watch porn because it didn't fulfill my need for stimulation.
    A big problem is that my addiction shifted now to real sex. Mostly not the healthy intimate one but like sex dates using dating apps concerning a specific fetish. I think this is also a way to deal with my bad mood, a tool to relieve the pain for a while. Also I started masturbating again. I think after the reboot it's kind of obligatory to fap once in a while since what's the point in having sex when you cum after 15 seconds?
    The less I have regular sex the more I get drawn to my fetish and things get worse. Deep down I just want a regular relationship but it's really tough when I'm feeling like shit therefore I gotta start for at least 30 days again.

    Have a nice day!
  2. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    Day 7: I already feel a lot more hopeful for my future. Abstaining has been a lot easier than my first run. I feel like I get a lot more attention from girls. Today I've been studying in the library and there were loads of girls and many seemed to notice me and hold eye contact for some time. Going to the pub tonight with mates tonight. Hangover day will be tough but I'm taking this very serious. Also I haven't been thinking about fetishes at all. Some intense regular stuff comes to my mind from time to time.
  3. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    Day 14: I basically workout like a lunatic now. Have strong desires for sex now / fantasies.. Not for fapping tho rather for real sex.
  4. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    I've been in the Netherlands on Friday with my mates and just realized again that weed makes the cravings insanely strong. I relapsed once on that night when I got home, no porn though and I didn't go looking for sex on dating apps, which is the upside. I actually think it's quite okay for me to fap maybe like once a month if I don't have sex. I don't have DE anymore since my 90 days stop 4 years ago.. I gotta admit I'm feeling pretty down again though, but it could be because I'm getting sick. Also I'm playing a lot of computer games to get my mind of things, which isn't the best thing to do. I just really miss some girl who cares and as long I don't have that I will have the temptation to fill that void with PMO or sex.
  5. TomFromFrance

    TomFromFrance New Member

    I know how you feel mane! I've been rebooting since the 6th of March, I relapsed watching porn 2 weeks later, but never did it since! I'm cool with my PMO abstinence for now, I got some morning woods when I don't put any alarm clock. The most difficult part is that my weed addiction and my porn addiction are linked, as I always had sex or masturbate while high on weed! Now I quit on smoking weed for 4 days (after 6 or 7 years of daily smoking), I'm starting to feel a bit better now, but that's really a little bit! My libido is pretty dead for now and it makes me kinda freak out, I really wanna try PMO again to see if my penis is really dead or no, but I'll stick to my goal which is having a normal libido, without watching porn everyday to get asleep... keep on my friend !
  6. BackOnTrack

    BackOnTrack Active Member

    Yeah it can be scary those flatlines but the upside is not having those goddamn urges all the time. Also you don't need too worry to much, most of the time you think you're flatlining while if you would be with a girl everything would work out just fine. Porn is really an unnecessary thing,

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