Hey guys. I’m back. I’m starting again. I just got through one hell of a divorce and I pretty much screwed up a huge chunk of my life. I hit really low and now I’m trying to rebuild. I need help. I’ve been doing Mark Queppet’s Reforge. It’s helped me recognize why I turn to porn. It’s just to escape my pain and/or loneliness. It’s a cycle though, I go through these times where I look at my life and feel like a loser, and then I bury my head into porn, which disengages me from reality, which causes my life to get worse, so then I go to porn to try to feel better, and it just keeps cycling. All I’m trying to do is escape the pain of my life, but porn just masks it, it doesn’t take it away, it just puts a coat of crappy paint on a piece of shit. I need to engage in my life and stop running away. I have to feel the pain. Fuck, I feel awful right now. Day 2 no Pmo. I’m tired of not getting what I want women-wise. Somehow I end up with women I normally would never want, but I’m so desperate and weak, and have no game it seems. I definitely feel much more attractive when I’m off the pmo. I guess I just feel better about myself when I’m off, and women are attracted to that.