Hello, Newbie here. They say the first step is to admit there is a problem. Here it goes, I have a P, MO, and PMO problem. I’m 36 and have been PMOing for about 24 years. I am starting to recognize the symptoms everyone is talking about on here. I felt that no one else had this type of addiction to P. I am noticing now these symptoms of irritability, anti-social, anxiety, lack of focus, lack of energy, stuttering, low volume in my speech, etc. I want to be super again. I practically go every day with PMO. It’s always on my mind and I it is distracting. Like a lot of you, I was introduced early and I got hooked. At one point in my life, this addiction had me convinced that I should go into the P industry that it’s my “calling”, I never pursued that but wow! I have tried to quit once but no success. I have a hard drive full of P that I cannot delete no matter what. I even had my mouse ready to click delete but I couldn’t. I hide the excessiveness of PMO from my wife but she knows I watch P and MO often. She rather I do that then go sleeping around. I am not ready to commit to quitting yet and actually had this typed up for a week now because I’m afraid to stop. I feel that posting this will force me to take action. My wife is an understanding person so I might tell her that it’s an actual problem. This will be a huge deal since, after that, she can keep tabs on me. I found this site researching about sexual transmutation and I am glad I found this site! That't what I'm going to try to focus on, when I get the urge, I'll turn it into useful energy. Reading through some of the posts on here has opened up my eyes and giving me some courage. Right now, I am taking the month of February to prepare mentally. Therefore, I am deciding that beginning of March I will commit to starting my rebooting journey. At least, I hope I attempt to quit.