About halfway through the holiday. The drive was looooooong but uneventful. It was actually a good chance to meditate, practice staying in the moment rather than spinning off with fantasy or inner dialogue. Which reminds me, when i was in my late twenties i sometimes did highway driving actually looking at porn mag on my lap, because... well, yunno. Had a new thought in the car- "my life is no more important than anyone else's life". I've held a grudge against one of my sister-in-laws for many years because of something she said when my wife and i were struggling with infertility. It was something i couldn't let go of and didn't want to let go of (definition of a grudge), and it colored the way I interpreted everything she said. Anyway, we saw her and her family yesterday and it was nice. Only today did i realize i had not had one bad thought about her for months and months. The only explanation for this is the mindfulness practice and occasional tonglen exercises i do. I've never done tonglen specifically about this woman, or my feelings about her, but it's making a more general change in my brain. It is proof, as if i needed any more, of the power of Pema's teachings. Another drive up to see my parents tomorrow and more cousins. My parents are getting very old now so there will be unconscious stress and worry, but if i can stay in the moment and be present for that time with them, that will be a win.