Thanks for your post trapped. I keep coming back to it and rereading it and it's been helping me a lot. I'm doing better now. Part of the problem was i was out of practice fighting urges. My mood improved a lot on Thursday after a good sleep and that has helped with the urges too. You're right about there being so much more to lose than the things i mentioned. I guess it's hard for me to perceive and measure the improvements when they occurred so gradually and when my mood is low the tendency is to think "i feel bad now, so what difference has it made?" I suppose if i was still PMOing regularly these rough patches would have been so much harder, or maybe i would not even have noticed them in my PMO induced haze. That's life though and the more we let ourselves experience it without a filter the more joy we can feel when things go right. Last week as i was sliding off the rails i had any number of options i did not exercise- i could have called an old friend (3 old friends contacted me recently out of the blue- maybe the universe was trying to tell me something...), i could have gone for a swim, i could have watched a movie- any of these things might have snapped me out of it, but the tunnel vision had set in. Actually a "tunnel" describes the experience pretty well. A new development is my wife has bought us both fancy new smart phones. Two years ago my addict self would have been rejoicing but now i'm just wary of it and leave it turned off most of the day. I'm so grateful i found YBOP before getting a smart phone or my life would have really ground to a halt- i would have been watching porn literally everywhere. I owe you trapped. I don't know where you are exactly with the reboot right now- but the same rules apply as always: install blockers, zero fantasy, exercise and get loads of sleep.