Created a new journal to essentially reinvent myself as I enter a new phase of life. In about 90 days from now I will be turning 40 so I've opted to keep this journal here to keep track of my progression. I frittered away my late teens, twenties and thirties in a cycle of compulsive, shame fuelled sexual behaviour which has had a hugely detrimental impact on my life. It's truly frightening how quickly life passes us by. I'm determined to make the next decade the best experience I've ever had. This means actively working on improving in all areas of my life e.g. health, finances, body, spirituality, hobbies and relationships. This time I am doing it for myself. There's a powerful exercise on Recovery Nation where you're asked to find an photograph of yourself as a child and look into the eyes of your younger self in order to reconnect and feel compassion towards oneself. At that age I was innocent and free from addiction - and it's that child for who I am now reclaiming my own life by making better choices.