Questions on escalation to shemale porn

cos some trannys are pretty hot


just sayin'

 

Hey GettingBetter30,

Thanks for sharing your story. Sounds like it wasn't easy. It also sounds like you might be judging yourself for what you were into. I'd suggest not doing that. I'm sure you've seen by now that it's not at all uncommon to escalate to transsexual porn. Maybe it is "some fucked up shit" or maybe it isn't. Who's to really say. An interest is an interest. As long as it's not harming people, then why should we judge it?

When I started to PMO to tranny porn, I definitely felt shame afterwards, but after a while I just let that go. I stopped worrying if it made me gay, if I was becoming a degenerate pervert. I chose not to be ashamed of what I was into. I found more shame in giving into my urges and lacking self-control and PMO'ing every night than I did based on my PMO material.

The downside, however, is that I think I will always be sexually curious about them. For the rest of my life. Maybe it would take meeting one in real life to get past it. I don't know. Anyway, thanks for sharing.

 

Very few and far between... and even then when they take the make up off they look like guys. The rest are just gross.

 

I don't understand this whole "escalation" thing with some of you guys. After a few days of fapping to porn I would usually take a week or two off from porn, I'd masturbate during this time to pics and stuff, but I"d give it a week or two before I'd go rent another porno again. Even when I had porn on the computer, I'd regularly take time off cause then I'd get a bigger kick when I came back to it. I never had a need to watch anything but the normal mainstream porn I"d watch all the time.

 

Thanks for the response. Letting go was hard, you get deep into an addiction and it becomes like this second person, now that I'm removing that exterior it feels easier and easier to let it go. In Vegas last year I was in my hallway and I saw a transsexual for the first time and it was like "holy fuck that is not attractive". Think that helped turn the tides.

Yes the weird thing is it will always be a part of my memories. I saw a truck driving around today and the name of the company was similar to a tranny website and I had a flashback. Most people have flashbacks to happy memories or girlfriends, not us, lol. Although the more i get away fr porn the more positive memories are coming back and the more new positive memories I'm making. Thanks for listening.

 

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main problem, I thought i was in the clear where I did not watch tranny porn for prob over a year. Even the last good run i was confident I can do without it. When it gets out of hand with the amount of time I spend on it the rediculouseness kicks in and I stop.
Erections start retuning feel good, interact socially, but can't make that jump to dating, fear of failing and yet again also the reason(s) why I watch this. Morally it's bent all of the porn I was/am into shemales, pissing (woman) not into shemales doing that, cuckolding, cheating wives, foot jobs (woman), fisting (woman) vagina only. I don't event think fisting is legal in us but I am watching. not watched regular sex in many years. Who would let their kids be around someone that watch this shit if they knew.
I am done posting about this and was somewhat hoping there would be a person/few people that said "yeah I was into that for years moved past it, been years since I watched and no struggle to stay away." Not impressed by a month or even 6, been there and the ultimate would be someone saying they are dating steady and no need for any of it. Or "yeah man I was into trannies for years and it turned out I am gay, accepted it and moved on with life."
A few years ago I was there also seeing tranny in real life and went ugh and some what still do

Professional help, tried it, smeared off on some noob and did not open to this point. Will retry.
this round I'llaccept being alone right from the start perhaps for life and focus on achievable stuff in near future for me. The burden of hope for me is destructive when the outcome is always the same.

 

escalation into gay/shemale porn

i sucked a cock and watched tranny and gay porn an it totally fuck uo my head...i dont process info like i used too,imma complete different man,i was literally the straitest man on the planet no doubt about it,it actually took me a very long time to get into gay/tranny porn i pretty much forced myself to get into it becuz i was bored of female porn and i just needed to get my nut off..and finnally,sure enough i got turned on by gay shit and tranny shit,i still havent ever had a gay dream and i kno for a fact im not gay on any level im just freakin annoyed by these side effects im so freakin depressed im not the same me anymore pleasehelpme this isnt funny anymorei never thought i would ever loose interest in females,i still get truned on by chicks but not like i used too,i cant really tell which chick is hotter than the other,i used to can tell bt now i cant,everythings all fucked up im afraid i have became a homo like the rest of the fags ive met im not talking about the real homos im talkin about the guys u talk to about chicks with that dont really know how to talk about chicks,u kno the ones u just dont fukin get?the ones that would rather talk about anything else but chicks?uyeah,thats me now! FUCK dude i cant believe it thiss was an experiment gone wrong please PLEASE anyone tell me will i ever go back into being the straitest man alive?will i ever be able to get these gay urges out of my system?or is this permanent?will always be a fag now?this has seriouslyy made me contemplate suicide,not becuz people might find out but becuz the feeling is HORRIBLE it makes u feel week and vulnerable like a helpless pregnant women u get more emotional too,i used to be so tough now imma fag,i just cant take it anymore please im telling u this is making me wanna off myself an jump off a bridge the pain is to disgusting it hurts dude...its like sume1 i knew died its like I DIED i feel like im in mourning 24/7...please WILL I EVER GO BACK TO HOW I ONCE WAS?

 

Re: escalation into gay/shemale porn

Man if you say you are straight you are!

Read this first: http://www.brainphysics.com/yourenotgay.php

Most guys escalate into the same genre of porn and some even act out on these fantasies for an even bigger hit of dopamine. The Underdog had issues with trannies too! But he got over it because this is all porn-induced crap! Gay's fearing they are straight and straight's fearing they are gay, both share an addiction for porn.You take out the porn, you reboot, you revert back to yourself! So simple! Would you have really done all that if you didn't watch porn? No! You would still be the "straightest man on earth". Porn f***** you up and millions of other guys in the world. That's why we are all here. To fix up our lives, balance our brain chemicals and emotions through abstinence and carry on with our lives as nothing happened. I myself struggle with femdom fantasies, I hate them, but I try to not let my thoughts define me. I had HOCD just like you but that is pure bs. Just know that you are str8 period. There is no switch you can be flippin in your brain to make you gay. You were hard-wired at birth period. And one more thing, gay people are afraid of how others would think of them, because they know they are gay. While straight people with HOCD (homoOCD)and even gay people with str8OCD because of porn are afraid they are becoming straight or gay respectively. Here's a post I wrote a while back that has helped many people with HOCD even myself:

I pulled the following advice from my very first post. But just to say it upfront, from what you wrote you're straight period. Porn has significantly warped your mind but it cannot change who you are. My advice is to stay away from pmo and give your brain a break. After several months or years it will reset itself and you will feel normal again. That's the whole point of this forum and is probably the reason you joined,

Here more advice that helped me conquer my HOCD. Now I don't think twice about that nonsense:

Overcoming HOCD:

-I would like to preface this with: "If you say you are straight you are period"
- Acknowledge that this is OCD triggered by an addiction to pornography. Here test yourself:
1. Did you acquire a fetish to TG or gay porn through PMO novelty?
2. Are these urges uncontrollable? (this is indicative of an unnatural sex drive and results from porn addiction)
3. Do these urges make you happy? (if not then this does not reflect your natural sexual state or desires, however unconscious or buried under porn addiction they may be)
4. Denial? (What if I’m actually gay...really?... if you were you would have known about this before becoming addicted to PMO)
5. Do you unconsciously notice women in public first but then anxiety from HOCD kicks in?
6. Finally is it difficult to stop the desires and anxiety related to HOCD? (then this is not the "true" you but a by-product of rewired brain circuits due to the Coolidge effect)
IF YOU SCORED YES FOR A MAJORITY OF THESE POINTS THEN YOU HAVE HOCD AND ARE STRAIGHT, only porn has tampered with your conscious sexual preferences causing you to doubt your identity. NoFap is the cure but here's something else to consider to help you out:

1. "Stop giving a f***" literally, if you adopt this attitude towards your OCD you will render the fears associated with this disorder as irrational, illusionary, and harmless....because in reality from the position of someone with no OCD... they in fact are "false evidence appearing real" (FEAR get it!
2. Keep in mind that PMO is not a natural expression of sexuality, so any fetishes you acquire in practicing PMO do not reflect your natural sexual state. They are just add-ons or like adware on your computer that download into your brain unconsciously and perform their insidious tasks, until they surface to the conscious mind (your antivirus program) and you're like how did that get their!? I guess it’s time to “clean up your operating system" so to speak.
3. Know that the brain remembers what gave it the most pleasure (dopamine), this is a primal instinct which contributes to successful reproduction. But your brain has not evolved to differentiate between real life sex and PMO so you wire yourself to what gave you the most intense orgasm. Because of novelty that may be gay porn, you associate your sexual identity with what arouses you most. Now if you starve your neural pathways of this dopamine then you will experience a full blown HOCD episode because your brain doesn't care about your sexual preference it just wants to get its fertilization job done. Because gay porn was your biggest pleasure high your brain will recreate these urges to that genre of porn and you will feel a strong attraction towards that content. This will cause your rational brain to be overwhelmed into a state of a sexual identity crisis because it doesn’t know what’s going on behind the scenes where your braining is wiring new neural connections according to strength of sexual stimulation. So remember if you do nofap your brain will exacerbate your HOCD symptoms until it realizes you’re no going to cave in and feed it its dopamine dose. Eventually these connections will weaken according to the principle "neurons that fire apart wire apart" and you preferences will return to your pre-addiction state.
4. Here's something interesting: Your continued exposure to porn has associated male genitalia with pleasure on an unconscious level. If you become aroused by the male junk and not males themselves think again...you have acquired a fetish through PMO use. Gay males are attracted to male sex organs, male body type, and male mind. Straight males are attracted to female sex organs, female form, and female mind. That means if you are into TG you are only hooked on the conditioning of penis to pleasure. Simple as that.
5. HOCD is brain's method of relapse. So learn to use your brain not the other way around.
6. Stop any rituals you have associated with testing your "true orientation." This is important because that fuels the fear and the HOCD. Just remember this before initiating any further "tests": you have proven countless times that you are straight, so there’s no point in wasting your time anymore.
7. It's not the type of porn, but the novelty. It's not you! Porn messed up your brain! And each day with nofap, you return to your natural self.
8. IF YOU STILL THINK OTHERWISE I'M SORRY BUT SCIENCE AND PEOPLE'S REBOOTING EXPERIENCES DISAGREE.

One last thing: You can literally wire your brain to anything even a chair through porn. That's because porn separates emotion from sex. So your dopamine spikes at anything that is novel and taboo. First chairs....then that gets boring and then sofas etc. This is an endless pursuit of novelty and pleasure. But if you stop pmo, then your dopamine levels will stabilize and once again you will link emotion to arousal and you will pursue meaningful relationships with women as you mentioned before finding out about pmo and entering the novelty game.

Here's some more for just plain old OCD:

OCD preys on fear, it IS Fear. And what is fear?

False
Evidence
Appearing
Real

Thus, all these thoughts are irrational...so why should you act on them and give them significance?

Here I will show you how absurd OCD really is:

"walks past garbage can"...
BRAIN: you want to eat that garbage, you know you want it...eat it...EAT IT
YOUR RATIONAL SELF: Are you serious brain? I'm not eating that s***! What you think i'm some raccoon!

Note the humor you attached to this compulsion...it gives you control over your fears of doing something because it underscores their absurdity!

Also try meditation which will help you control and gain conscious power over any mental illness...


Hope that helps!